Rozana

Miss you at work my little princess.

A Tough Day

Yesterday was one of the most tiring days in Rozana's life. Up to 6PM when we were out everything were OK and she was enjoying of being with me, clapping and even singing in her own language. Then I feel she is somehow sleepy so I drove home but unfortunately the electricity went off at the moment we reached. I guessed it wouldn't come back for 2 hours and saw children are playing in the yard, so I put her on the push chair and wait till 8 with them. But unfortunately there wasn't any electricity still. She was totally sleepy and also hungry and was nagging a lot. I hugged her and came 5 floors up, really unable to breath at our apartment door(she is heavy for me carrying 98 steps). I feed her and tried to make her sleep ,but she hasn't seen candles beams and it was disturbing her concentration. I lighted lots of candles because I guessed she would be frightened and ... my guess were true. When the weather was perfectly dark and there weren't any light except candles she started crying. I wasn't able to calm her, weather was so hot even a spot breeze wasn't in the air. She was hungry but not eating anything.... I was crying and only cursing those ones who cause this much problems for people out of their illiterate decisions in the country. At 9:30 Mehrdad reached home and brought us out of that hell. First we went and bought a shirt for Rozana (after testing it she felt down the chair and cried a lot :( ) ,then he bought some dinner and went to a park. We sat on the ground and exactly at that moment I was feeling a little tranquility. Rozana didn't eat much but she was happy in that cold and also lighted environment and started playing with herself again.
Before reaching home I phoned my mother about the electricity and she said it's come back at 10:15PM!!!! (almost 4 hours, how shameful ) .
After she slept, I liked crying with an appreciation feeling about Mehrdad. He really saved me last night.

Rozana, 11 Months Old

Yes, she is 11 months old, even I can't believe how fast but sweet these months has passed.
On thursday we went to visit her pediatricioan. she asked weather she walks 4 steps or says mama- baba or not. Of course my answers were yes but when she asked about the number of her teeth I said nothing!!! She checked her head and mouth again and said this age is the last anticipated time for those ones who have normal growings. But because Rozana doesn't have any teeth and also her head hasn't still become hard so maybe she is suffering from lack of D vitamin which can be given by sun beams. She said in Tehran it's very common that infants don't see any sun during their age. Otherwise it could be caused by genetic reasons. I'd my teeth grown at the age of 7 months but not sure about Mehrdad , unfortunately his mother is not sure either.
Anyhow I'm going to take a picture from Rozana's wrist to determine the amount of her bone density. If it's not enough then we'll add more dozes of D vitamin, in her daily drops or in a vaccine.

Her measures at this age:
Weight = 10.200kg Height= 76cm Head Area = 49cm

Gift

After lots of thinking I found what should I give Rozana in her birthday. I have 1 month time so I should hurry... You'll see my selection at that date of course.

Daily

I wake up at 6 in the morning, feed Rozana while she is asleep, change her diaper, make Mehrdad wake up ,wear cloths, drink 2 glass of milk, hug Rozana and go to my moms house. Then come with Mehrdad to Tajrish square, he leave me for his work and I drive about 25 minutes to my work. I'm there at 7, getting around in the internet till 8 and reading news, then after a light breakfast my working day begins up to 13. At that time my eyes are tearing out of long hours of gazing at the monitor, maybe I should go to an optometrist very soon.
Any how, I leave there at 13:30 and then again 30 minutes driving I reach my mom's house. Rozana is waiting there for me, very energetic, very cute and also has missed me, so I should hug her at the first step and do playings for some minutes, then taking out my cloths and wash my hands for feeding her. After all these hurrying moments (around 14:15) I can sit with my mom and eat lunch. Thanks God that I shouldn't cook it, otherwise I should eat fried eggs everyday.
After lunch we go to our home, she is playing and walking behind me while I'm tiding tables, and trying to find some times for rest. most of the time not successful in this case so we go to bath together and stay for about 45 minutes( in the summer her bath has turned to a daily job). then drying her, put some lotion on her skin, feed her, water her and at this moment if I'm somehow lucky she feels sleepy so I can take rest for about 45 minutes. After this necessary break, she needs playing again. So most of the times we go to a park or just walking around,even sometimes go back to my mom's house as an afternoon place!!!! then coming home, giving her dinner, playing with her again till 11PM which is her bed time.
Yesterday when I proceeded all these steps Mehrdad said it's better for us to go to sleep too. In all the day we didn't find ant moment for talking and now when she wasn't there we were tired.
I was laughing to this procedure, she is taking all of our energy and when she feels there isn't any more then she gives us break.
It's a funny circle, I'm sure day by day gets better and maybe one day missing it, but now at this point it's like this.


P.S. After finishing this post a friend asked me about the time of Mehrdad coming back and also my cooking times: He is at home about 21:15 obviously very tired. When Rozana sees her father she runs to his arms, he tries to make her satisfied but you know it's very hard. So I should take Rozana and go to her room for letting Mehrdad take out cloths and rest for some minutes.
Most of the times I do my cookings in the afternoon while I'm waiting for the sleeping time of Rozana.

Walking

Yesterday when I reached home and saw there isn't any electricity for the elevator I was feeling damn tired. I went up 5 floors in hot weather and was only thinking about those stairs which I should come dawn in a few minutes and then again go up 5 floors in my home. With these thinking's I saw Rozana. Mom congratulated me for the first steps she had by her own !!!!!!! and laughed why we haven't found her talent before. I didn't believe her so she sat on the floor and made Rozana standing then suddenly opened her arms from her shoulder and she ran to me about 6 steps !!!!!!! How easily my feelings changed. This time I was damn happy.


I'm writing here for her reminding on the future: You took your first alone steps at the age of 10 months and 25 days old. I guess you'll start walking without any crawling ;) kiss you my little nice princess.

Reading

She likes reading books. When i open her own books which of full of childish poems she claps and laughs and is waiting for me to page it, even if I wait she does it by herself.

She is getting old and I've already missed all her funny and nice jobs.

Coloured Rozana

This is my little princess in her new face colored. It was interesting that she sat until the painter finished her job.

Yesterday for the first time, Rozana take the edge of my bed and tried to stand up by her own. But because she is a little bit ... so I helped her but she didn't understand . So she became very happy of this big job she had done and started repeating it times and again. Her perseverance was interesting.

P.S. This photo was taken in a festival done by Mehrdad's working company and lots of children did it. But Rozana's colors were less than the others.

Sepehr

This is Sepehr, 6 months old and very cute. He will be a good friend in the future for rozana, I know ....

Curved Hairs

Days by day these craves are growing... When can I comb her long black nice hairs?!!!

The Kite Runner

Yesterday I finished reading a book called "The Kite runner". It was a novel by Khalid Hosseini ,an Afghan writer ,which is the first Afghani's novel translated into English. After all these years it's the FIRST one, I think only this sentence at the beginning of the book shows depth of poverty in this neighbor country of Iran.
We've lived always with afghan's in our streets or working in our homes or sitting under the sun beam waiting for works. Always remember my parents advices to not go near them in avoiding of being stolen by these gygantic creatures.
Now after this story, I feel I've been in the environment of the book, I feel it's not a country called Afghanistan but only a place very near to my land, I feel great sorrow for those people who were involved in an involuntarily permanent fight, I hate that Great Soviet who started this genyside, and I'm sorry that we are living in this much rudeness... When I read the chapters happened during Taliban governing on Kabul and I compare it to the happenings of my own country which is ruled under the religious rulls I can just sigh. We are not at that bad condition but we are suffering from those irrational decisions which are taken with the name of Islam.

I do suggest reading this book, not for having a book to read but to get known to a kind of kind people who are destroyed and they were living happily years ago.

You can read the idea of BBC Persian in it's archive of 2005-06-21 if you like. Also you can read another Persian text here.

Genius

This picture was taken in Gheitariye park with my new Nokia cell phone which is a 5610 with 3.2 megapixel resolution. I prefer those old pictures with a canon 1.2 megapixel resolution. They were better.


some thing new in Rozana improvements, she completely understand the meaning of the word "NO" and react positively instead. Whenever we use a negative verb or say no to her, she understands she shouldn't continue the task which is in, so sometimes starts crying and sometimes just nagging BUT all the times agrees and stop that job!!!!!! It's wonderful I think. Just remember she is only 10 months old and completely understand.
Maybe she is lazy in movements but very genius in thinking and it worth a world.

Her Improvements

Most of the days , Rozana and I go walking in the afternoon. She likes looking at other children running in the playing yard of the park or gazing at the boys who are playing football in the street. She never feels tired of being in the environments like these.
Even last night we were in the park up to 11PM and she was playing and playing with herself ,no matter that her sleeping time had passed and she was sleepy, but if we were at home or in a party after 10PM she starts nagging until we come home and let hers sleep.
When she see my mother or I has worn cloths she become really happy and shows it by her face gestures because she is sure it's time for going out.
We take bath everyday, it's a little bit hard for me going into bath with her daily but when I see that much joy in her face while entering the bath I can't resist in washing her. In the bath it's so funny, she is playing with some toys and I'm pouring water on her and singing for her. Some times she answers me but most of the times just listen and do what she wants. Sometimes feels sleepy and put her head on my foot and lazily leans to me. At these moments I just want to kiss her.
She likes eating everything. Almost there is nothing in the world which Rozana doesn't like eating, isn't it great?
She is talking in her own language but very emotionally and when wants to show this fountain of emotion just clean her mouth by the cloths of that beloved (poor) person. Most of her father and my cloths are dirty because of this and you will feel tickling in all muscles.


This is one of her photos after the abth.