Wise Children

Yesterday morning ,when Rozana and I were preparing to go to kindergarten she did whatever she could for not going there. She didn't like being away that day and the worse she started crying with a very loud voice !!! Everything was tolerable except this one. I became angry and said OK, we'll go to the kindergarten and in the afternoon I'll bring Tabasom( one of her classmates) instead of you because she doesn't cry at all. In a few seconds she changed her strategy and started talking against her !!!!!!!! She said Tabasom is very naughty, spoiled, cry most of the times and will ruin all the toys. Mehrdad and I were thinking weather we should laugh or cry because our daughter involuntarily is turning to someone who is able to gossip about others for her own benefits !!!!!!! Maybe I'm pessimistic but I think this is a bad fact.
My little princess, you will read these lines in future. Try to prove yourself always with your own abilities not by decreasing others potentials. If so you will be the loser, trust me.

Differences

Today morning when I was talking with my mom who is still in Malaysia I was thinking about difference of living in Iran in comparison with other countries. Malaysia is not a developed country and still has a long way for being counted so but still it's very developed comparing with Iran. At the moment they are breathing pure energy while we are looking for a bit( Being alive in this polluted weather of Tehran is a dream I think). They are enjoying moments of life by working 40 hours a week and resting for 2 days.(In Iran working hours are the same in written but in fact most of people are working 7 days a week for affording expensive prices). They are celebrating Jesus Birthday and also New Year Holidays while they are Muslim. ...
I'm really really worried for my country people, my town people and my family and friends who are living with me here...

Zaraneh

It's funny that Mehrdad and I were managing our income last night for being sure if we are able to take some breath in this damn country which is called Iran. I say funny because we are symbol of somehow successful citizens who have our jobs, salaries, home and some other facilities which are counted as primary facilities in other countries.
By new government program the price of everything has been increased at least 3 times than before. This amount of inflation, just in one night, is incredible in the world.
... And tomorrow is Yalda,longest night of the year, which is an opportunity for gathering and enjoying moments of being with family members ... and I'm wondering how many people in my country are able to gather like before and how many are dreaming last years ... and I'm happy that Rozana is still a child who doesn't understand none of these news .... and I'm wondering what will happen for my country in future.

My Father-In-Law

He is my father-in-law, one of those people who I love honestly and think is successful in his life. Absence of some people is very important in others lives and  he is one of those people for me.

Malaysia & Rozana

Yesterday ,while my mom was getting ready for going to Malaysia, Rozana kept on saying" Please bring me with yourself, please ,please". My mom was in rush and she didn't let her focus on packing all her needs. After some moments my mom answered her " OK, I'll bring you ti Malaysia if you wish but I have a habit, whenever I go there I leave my children and come back alone, so if you accept I'll go and leave you with your uncles and come back with no one." She thought for some seconds and answered: " No, I won't come. I'll come later with MamanSomi and BabaMehrdad!!!"
It was really amazing that only this sentence change all her mind. I was thinking how different are our generations, did my mom talk logically with me when I was a child ? Is it noble or not?

P.S. My mom is in the way to Malaysia and we all have missed her. Hope she enjoys all the moments of being with my brothers and Attiejoon.

God Helps

Tehran is in pollution holidays but there is no improvement in quality of weather. Every where is foggy and we are TRYING to breath.
In 1952 ,4000 people were killed in London by air pollution. It was really a disaster and was caused by weather inversion and also using coal in mass . After that time city governors understood it's a very important danger for people's life if not being controlled .Then they managed a 5 year program and surprisingly they were successful in the project. They changed public vehicles ( Do you remember those old red buses which were symbol of London?) ,They used fuel with better quality, they improved subway and other cheap instruments for people, they expand tele-marketing and tele-working ... Now London is one of the cleanest cities in the Europe and people are living happily there.
... We are not happy here, every night most of us are looking forward a news about pollution holiday in the next day, most of us are angry or depressed, most of us are always tired, most of us are worried about our children health .... but I'm wondering if most of us died in a disaster similar to London 1952!!! No one would be responsible and we'd lose lots of beloved ones. It's not very rare, think about it.

Again Pollultion Holidays

I think we are like those fishes who are living in dirty water and dreaming to swim in the sea. Really it's hard to breath. Yesterday I didn't use my car and came to work by public transport vehicles. It was OK and I was lucky for finding vehicles after just some minutes of waiting but weather was awful. In some moments I feel , I need to jump in the swimming pool of that fish I said.
Last week we were guests of my brother-in-law and went to north of Iran. Everything was good and at least we were able to breath and of course Rozana played all the day. Now we are managing another way of running ...

Accent

I think most of Iranians have seen Ghahve Talkh. It's a seri by Mehran Modiri which is describing a surreal part of Iran's history and showing that era's behaviour. It's somehow criticizing our regular mistakes which is done always and is going to be done forever I think.
Anyway, one of the characters of this seri has Mashhadi accent. He is playing perfect I think and makes me laugh by each word he says. Maybe I've missed my home town again or there are some other reasons but whatever it is, I'm sure that it doesn't make me angry by talking with that accent. Still I'm wondering why some people think if you are talking with Torki, Lori or even Shomali accent in a comedy program you are somehow acting offensive to them!!!

Pollution

Out of air pollution, Tehran is off tomorrow. I'm wondering how lucky is Mehrdad !!! and happy of having three pure days beside Rozana and him. My little princess I'm coming ...

Sing A Song

Two new songs by Rozana :

Wheels on the bus go round and round,
round and round, round and round,
wheels on the bus go round and round ,
all day long.
Mommy on the bus says "Don't do that,
Don't do that",
Mommy on the bus says "Don't do that",
all day long.
Daddy on the bus do Read Read Read,
Read Read Read,
Daddy on the bus do Read Read Read,
all day long.
Baby on the bus says "Wooo woo woo,
Woo woo woo,Woo woo woo",
Baby on the bus says "Woo woo woo",
all day long .......
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به به چه عطري
به به چه بويي
ليموي شيرين
چقدر تو خوبي
شكل ملوست چون پرتغاله
رنگ قشنگت
چون سيب كاله
تو فصل سرما
وقتي ميايي
براي بيمار
مثل دوايي
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P.S. Again I've missed her at work :(

SeaSide

In this polluted weather, sitting beside the sea and feeling sunbeams sounds like a dream.

Teddy Bears

 

Which one is the Teady Bear? !!!
P.S. Thx Attiejoon for your nice pictures.

mother-in-laws & Brides

Some days ago one of our collegues who hasn't seen her mother-in-law, brought some sandwiches as donation for the sake of her who had died years ago. Most of people said what a good bride she is !!! but I think it was better to say :what a good mother-in-law she was !!!!!!!!!! What do you think? :)


P.S. This is Rozana in one of the most memorable wedding we have ever been. It was about that foreigner bride who I've missed alot.

Rozana

I'm always blaming Rozana for making mess in all the home, I'm always thinking about her nutrition in afternoon and night times we are with each other (Has she eaten enough milk? bread? fruit? chocolate?), I'm always asking her to be Little bit quiet so I can be able to concentrate for a moment,I'm always asking her to stop watching her DVDs and give us some time for watching TV... and at last I'm always wishing to have more time for talking with Mehrdad same as before with no one who is running between us and demanding to give our cares.

Last night when she slept at 20, Mehrdad and I were somehow upset and both of us were wishing to have her beside for talking and messing and playing and ... We had those wished times but found it's not very precious comparing by her existence.

Raining

At last it started raining today. I'm talking about Tehran weather, we are in the 34th day of Autumn and only to day we smelt this fantastic smell of rain over the soil. If you are not living here don't try to feel this post, you should be here and breath this polluted weather for finding what I'm saying.

I'm simply happy only for the sake of this weather. hope to see you all happy :)

Oooops !!!

Today I was walking in one of the most crowded avenues of Tehran. I saw a man and his daughter standing beside and it was obvious that they are not Iranians. Man came to me and asked me if I can speak English. I think how lucky he is that found ME who is able to talk to him for helping him, I was thinking maybe he is looking for an address. Anyhow, he asked me if I know the meaning of flood. I said yes but my face was surprised. He thought maybe I don't understand him clearly so said he is talking about "Seil" (flood in Persian) and said he is from Pakistan, had lost everything in recent flood and now is flood-stricken with absolutely nothing to give to his family !!!!!!!!!!!! At this moment I was really shocked, he was begging me in one of Tehran avenues for an accident happened in Pakistan !!!
Somebody said when our president help to some countries like Lebanon same as one of Iran provinces so it's natural that neighbours come here for begging money !

Different Wedding

Some nights ago we were invited to a wedding which was different than usual ones. Bride wasn't Iranian but was between us and did all the customs.
Everything was perfect as predicted before but there were something especial. Brid's behaviour was delighting, she was really kind and you can find her happiness in each of the face muscles. She didn't pretend anything and was BETWEEN the guests not ACTING for them.
In the way back I was thinking about our generation. What have done to us that we changed to this sample: not very kind, somehow selfish and of course not as honest as we pretend.

P.S. Of course this article is talking about Iranians in general and maybe is somehow offensive but is my opinion. accept my apologize before getting angry ;) Thank you in advance.

Ghahve Talkh (Bitter Coffee)

Last night we were watching the new series of GhahveTalkh. For those who are not living in Iran I should said it's a series which was supposed to be broadcasted in national TV but for some reasons is now available in the stores. You can buy each 3 episodes with less than 3$ which I think is a suitable price.
We don't have any copywrite in Iran. So all the Windows OS are copied versions, all the musics we are listening are downloaded via internet, all new ideas in marketing or advertising is regenerated without any allowance of the owner and in short I should say again we don't have any copywrite.
In this country, people DECIDED to not copy Ghahve Talkh. This decision wasn't predictable at all, even the director is shocked and he was thanking all the people who NOT copy it.
I was thinking about the power of unity. If WE all want to do a job we ALL will be successful, individual efforts are not good at all ;)

Mistakes

Making mistakes is not regular but if it changes to something usual, what would you do? What is your reaction if you are the one who'd made mistakes and what is you reaction if you are the one who is suffering of other ones mistakes? Are you able to forgive them and so be rightful for deserving future forgives?

These days I'm facing to those people who have done mistakes which cause me suffering and I'm just trying to close my eyes in order of having the hope for my own future forgiveness maybe by others.

cell phone

I can,t remember who was this sentence qouted from : cars are the curse of 20th century .
I can complete his advice by this one: Cellphones are the curse of 21th century . Sometimes I'm just dreaming of loosing mine.

Lunch

Eating lunch in Nayeb restaurants is always fabulous, especially if you are guest of khaleSanaz and AmuMohammad.
Thank You.

Speech

Last night I was shocked of hearing the speech of Iran president in UN General Assembly . I felt ashamed and was imagining the feeling of those people who lost their beloved ones in 11Th September 2001.
"hateful and offensive" ,these are the words Barack Obama uses for describing Iran's president speech and I think he is right.
How bad everything is going on... Iranians are facing worse limitations in international activities and governors only think about their own aims.

Ding Ding Ding

Today is the 1st day of Mehr, it means start day of educational year in Iran. There was lots of children in the streets who were walking to schools with their mothers and I was dreaming of the year Rozana and I are going to school.
This sense of start is always sweet for me.

Happy 1st of Mehr.

My Family

 

This is one of my favorite pictures, all my family members and I've missed some of them who are not here alot.

Today I was looking for a pic from only my brothers and I and unfortunately there wasn't anything on my computer at work...

Pizza & Piaz

Yesterday when Rozana and I were passing by a fast food restaurant and she was very hungry out of about 2 hours playing in the park, she said " Mama when we reach home please call the man and ask him for bringing a Piaz (onion in Persian language)." I guess she had forgotten the name of pizza !!! I asked her again about what she wants. This time she understood she had said something wrong so she changed her sentence to " Mama, when we reach home please call the man and ask him for bringing a sandwich." !!!!!!!!!!

GhormeSabzi

Today is the first day after Fetr and everybody are allowed to eat lunch in public(In Ramadan those who don't get fast eat food but not in front of others).
Anyhow,I'm sited here at work and don't have any lunch and I know there isn't anything at home waiting because I wasn't home last days, one of my colleagues is eating her GhormeSabzi and the smell is spread all over the hall.
I'm confessing here: I'm dying for eating her food :)))))))
Rozana has a book which the main character is named " Shu-shu Shekamu". I think they can change it to "Somi Shekamu".

P.S. for those who are not Iranian I should say that GhormeSabzi is one of traditional Iranian food which is made by meat and bean and vegetables and also rice and the smell is very famous I think.

Resoela

Fortunately Rozana's fever is decreased now and she is as good as before. When her doctor saw the result of her lab examinations she said it's a kind of children fever which is called Resoela and is common in under 3 year old children. Then have fever with no other sympthoms and after 3 days fever will disappear and some tiny red dots will apper on their skin especially their face. Rozana was the same and I should add she wasn't OK till those tiny dots went out.
Today morning I was searching internet for this disease but I didn't find anything more than some weblogs of those mama's who had same experience. Maybe I'm writing the name of it with wronge spell. Please help me if you know.

Thank you for all those friends who were woriied for her and asked about it. I'm happy of having you all beside. Thanks again.

Fever

Rozana is in a bad fever these days which the cause is not found yet. I'm not in good mood , please pray for her.

Friends and Families

Your family members can be your friends but your friends can't be your family members. Do you believe in this sentence?

I have some friends who are really my family members, so I have a sister and some brothers now ... and also I have some family members who are not my friends any more, so I'm talking with them only in family limitations. What had happened to me for this much change in relationship? How big the reason could be?!!!

Buying New Cloths

When we were children, one of our best moments of life was the time my parent buy new cloths for us. I can even now feel those moments, I was happy from deep of my heart and was counting minutes to wear those new cloths.
After growing up and especially after the time I had my own money and was able to buy whatever I wish, those pure feelings faded. Maybe it's the reason that I don't like buying cloths now and prefer to buy my needs from the first store, but after Rozana's birth everything changed.
Now I'm feeling exactly those times again by buying new cloths for Rozana !!! It's my joy of the life to go to shopping center and buy cloths for her. Even after buying them I'm again counting moments to wear those things on her and surprisingly I don't have this feeling for buying new toys !
Two days ago when we went and bought a pair of shoes for her ,I was dreaming of wearing it and the next day when she wore them in the park I was enjoying of all the steps. It's great I think.

Recordings

Rozana's singing is getting better. Yesterday I took lots of films from her new abilities and while we were watching them last night, she was the one who laughs more :)
I have lots of pictures from my childhood. I remember at that time my father was almost the only one who had an individual photo-camera in the family and had taken lots of photos from us, but there weren't any recording camera. Now I don't know what was the first world I said or the first music I repeat but Rozana even knows about her frowning methods by her films.
These technology improvements make generation difference and early differ in generations I think.

BDay Party

 

3 Year old

Tomorrow Rozana will be 3 years old...
It's 3 years since I've changed to a mother and am feeling moments by detail right now. I should confess the first year was the hardest one but honestly it was sweet. Those nights I was dreaming about having 2~3 hours of continuous sleep now my dreams have changed. I have lots of memories these years, one of the best one of course was the day I heard my pregnancy news in the laboratory, the other one was the moment I was becoming conscious after the Cesarean surgery and I was hearing my mom voice, the other one is all the moments I was breast-feeding Rozana, the other moment was the time she started talking and said she loves me ... and I had bad memories too which are not countable against good ones.


One of my best friends always says we should be very thankful to God that we become parents without any certain effort, without managing days and nights and without doing lots of medical cares. It's kindness of God which makes us parents NOT OUR RIGHT. If doesn't happen for us then we shouldn't blame him, we should just be thankful of his generosity nothing else.

And now I'm really grateful of this much prosperity I have and pray to him for making the wish of all couples who want children, true.

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Mehrdad is managing a 3 day trip for next week. Last night he was talking about his plans. I talked about ticket prices and found his calculation is less than mine. I was thinking about the reason of my mistake (in these cases I'm always the one who made mistake, his math is better than mine honestly), but he said he hadn't count any ticket for Rozana and desires to go without her !!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe what he said even now because Rozana and he are praying each other.

Today morning when we were coming to work, Rozana asked his father to hug her into the kindergarten but Mehrdad wasn't feeling good and said will do it tomorrow, Rozana came and kissed her with eyes full of tears and accepted. Really she will be ill if doesn't meet Mehrdad for a certain time...

Lots of couples go to travel without their children. I hear it a lot, but I, myself never ever can be satisfied of such a thing...

What do you think? Am I right or wrong? Should we go alone for the sake of Rozana's health(Because of warm weather Mehrdad says maybe Rozana will be suffered) or should we cancel the trip? I'm doubtful.

In Kindergarten

;)

Last night we went to swimming pool after Eftar with my mom and Rozana. We ate Eftar in the pool and then went playing and swimming. Mehrdad waited there till 23 for being with us in return path(we are living in a country which is very similar to old Texas and nobody is in safe mode after a certain time).
Maybe it's nonsense for anyone who reads these lines but it was important for me. He stayed at work till that time while he was in fast and tired just for us. It is precious I think.
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Sometimes there are some hidden contracts between couples which makes their relations stronger or weaker. It was one of them for me, Thank you.

Ramadan

Tomorrow is the first day of Ramadan in Iran.
I like this festival from my childhood till now, although there are lots of religoinal subjects in my mind which I'm doubtful and think are lame reasons for leaders to continue their d i c t a t o r s h i p, but I still like Ramadan.
It's a reminder for meeting friends and families who are always available but no time for visiting them. It's an opportunity for Mehrdad and I to eat dinner together while Rozana is talking and singing for us.It's a time of happiness and creativity.
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I talked about all these reasons but nothing of being a better person or saying my prayers on time or being awake all the night for talking to God ... all these symbols of Ramadan are fake for me. Even I don't believe in those 3 holy nights... what's happened to my generation? morals are ruined ...


*!*!*!*Happy Ramadan*!*!*!*

Sea

These photos were taken in our last trip to Khazar sea with Mehrdad's family.

Punishment

Last night we were waiting for some guests, everywhere cleaned and Rozana was playing. Suddenly I saw a piece of the wallpaper of the bedroom is i her hand !!!!! It was the first time she did it and wasn't very important but I taught if I didn't say anything she would persist on her mistake. So I looked at her angrily and asked her to go to the room as punishment. Mehrdad and I were checking her times and again, she lied on the ground and was looking outside, Mehrdad wanted to go and hug her but I resisted.
Anyhow, our guests came and I was happy of being a rational mother, but when they came to the room they saw she is ASLEEP.
At the end of the night the one who was trying to talk with her was me and the one who was refusing and showing her anger was her.

Holiday

Like a blink of an eye weekend is ended(!) and I'm tasting good feeling of the memories.

At KhaleSanaz's house we found that Rozana almost can't dance and all those courses in the kindergarten was fake.

Happy

Today I'm happy without any certain reason. I'm still waiting for that hot-chocolate meeting but I'm not sad.
Talking with my brothers or having my parents as dinner guests yesterday or maybe watching Rozana's laughs and improvements or going to KhaleSanaz's house On Thursday can be the reason. Whatever it is, I'm happy today.

Hot-Chocolate

Sometimes you need something special in your life which wasn't needed yesterday or won't be needed tomorrow. Today I need a cup of hot-chocolate ,in a cafe shop, with a kind friend while not wearing my custom work uniform. Is it very much?

Keeping Secrets

1.If your secret is known by everyone,it's not the fault of your secret, but it's directly your fault because you'd shared it between irresponsible people.

2.Mothers are always those ones who should know all your secrets. Understand it when you share your secret between everyone except her, she would be heart-broken.

Again Farsi1

I don't know why Farsi1 team cant stay tuned on one dedicated frequency. They've announced some new one which is also on Hotbird. Here you are:

FARSI1 is currently experiencing a disruption in service. We are working hard at restoring FARSI1 so you can continue watching your favorite programs. We regret this inconvenience which is outside our control and appreciate your patience and support.

Please stay tuned to our website for any new information or updates.

In the meantime, our service is now also available on the following satellites:

Satellite: Eutelsat W3A (7 Degrees East)‬

Frequency: 10,721 MHz
Polarity: Horizontal
Symbol Rate: 22.0 Msps
FEC: 1/2

Satellite: HOTBIRD 6

Frequency: 11,317 MHz
Polarity: Vertical
Symbol Rate: 27.50 Msps
FEC: 3/4

Please note that between 6.45am Dubai time (7.15am Tehran/Kabul time) and 10.15am Dubai time (10.45am Tehran/Kabul time) our channel will be unavailable every day for maintenance purposes.

New Farsi1 Frequencies

Again Farsi1 channel team has announced some new frequencies. Here you are:

FARSI1 is currently experiencing a disruption in service. We are working hard at restoring FARSI1 so you can continue watching your favorite programs. We regret this inconvenience which is outside our control and appreciate your patience and support.

Please stay tuned to our website for any new information or updates.

In the meantime, our service is now also available on the following satellites:

Satellite: ARABSAT Badr4

FREQUENCY ONE
Frequency: 11,662 MHz
Symbol Rate: 27.5 Msps
FEC: 3/4
Polarity: Vertical

FREQUENCY TWO
Frequency: 12,111 MHz
Symbol Rate: 27.5 Msps
FEC: 3/4
Polarity: Horizontal

Satellite: NILESAT 104 (ATLANTIC BIRD 4)

FREQUENCY ONE
Frequency: 11,393 MHz
Symbol Rate: 27.5 Msps
FEC: 3/4
Polarity: Vertical



FREQUENCY TWO
Frequency: 12,437.00 MHz
Symbol Rate: 27.5 Msps
FEC: 3/4
Polarity: Horizontal

Please note that between 6.45am Dubai time (7.15am Tehran/Kabul time) and 10.15am Dubai time (10.45am Tehran/Kabul time) our channel will be unavailable every day for maintenance purposes.

Energy Broadcasting

Last night we had some guests who were Mehrdad's friends. We talked about different subjects but they started something new. It was about some classes which are held in Tehran by a well-known professor and is about self-conscious. You learn about hidden angles of your personality and also how to control out-coming energies.
In these classes you will learn to avoid meeting or talking people who are not useful for your soul and methods of increasing positive manners like trustfulness and kindness.
I think I need one of these courses to have better behaviour with those who are not important in my life but ARE there unfortunately.

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Nothing is going on as I wished these days...

New Farsi1 Frequencies

For those who are watching Farsi1 series and are not able to watch this 1 year old channel from Hotbird satellite, I'm pasting the note was published in their website:



New Satellite Frequencies

We regret to inform you that FARSI1 has been experiencing some difficulties with its HOTBIRD satellite coverage from about early morning 21 July 2010, Dubai time. We are currently working hard to restore our HOTBIRD feed.

In the meantime, our service is now also available on the following satellites:

Satellite: ARABSAT Badr4

Frequency: 12,111 MHz
Symbol Rate: 27.5 Msps
FEC: 3/4
Polarity: Horizontal
Service ID: 5
VPID: 3151
APID: 3152


Satellite: NILESAT 104 (AB4)

Frequency: 12,437.00 MHz
Symbol Rate: 27.5 Msps
FEC: 3/4
Polarity: Horizontal
Service ID: 4711
VPID: 4777
APID: 4778

Please note that between 6.45am Dubai time (7.15am Tehran/Kabul time) and 10.15am Dubai time (10.45am Tehran/Kabul time) our channel will be unavailable every day for maintenance purposes.

Cake

 

This is one of the best photos I've ever seen. It was taken in my 30th birthday.
Thank you Khale Sanaz for sharing it. I can't remember who was the photographer but he/she did his/her best.

Spouses

Who says after some years of having common life ,your love will be faded?
Last night when Mehrdad was late and didn't answer his cellphone I was like 10 years ago and started crying, like always the worth probabilities was in my mind and when I saw him tired but kind I forgot everything.
If Rozana come home late what should I do? This is really a nightmare for me.

Concerns

we are suffering from long times of electricity cut of in Tehran and other big cities of Iran. It's really intolerable when you are at home with an infant or a child, without any cooling system or even drinkable water and only try to bare the situation. These circumstances weren't chosen by us but maybe can be changed if we desire !!!
Do you really think by paying much for energy you will have a persistent service quality? I don't think so... There are other problems for not being able to give the least facilities of life to my kind country people.
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I saw pictures of Zahedaan terrorist attacks happened 2 days ago and I'm still shocked. They were all ordinary people like me ...
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Yesterday one of my friends was talking about her new Australian visa. She is leaving like thousands of other intelligent Iranians ...
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I'm thinking more than my tolerance these days.

Freinds

Last night I was invited to one of my high school friends' engagement party. When I say high school it means sometimes around 15 years ago. Of course my best friends are those who remains from that time.
Last night when I was looking at Elaheh beside her fiancee, I was reviewing lots of memories. She is very precious for me even if we don't meet frequently.

Hair-Cut

Yesterday I went to barbary and did hair-cut. Almost half of my hair are disappeared and I'm feeling wonderful. Even I feel younger. When that woman was cleaning the hair from the ground I was thinking about a new technic of collecting oil from Mexico gulf. By this method, people gathere lots of hair and put it into nylone socks then brush it over the oil. Most of the oil will be absorbed to this new weapon. I thought how good it was if I were living there and attend in that social effort.

My Dearest Dear

While Rozana was only painting and singing all past two days when we were guests of our friends, none of them could believe that a 3 year old girl can be this much calm and wise.

P.s. These are some random pictures taken in Hamedan and Mashad.

Holidays

Today and tomorrow are announced as not working days in almost two third of Iran provinces. The reason is hot weather but when we were experiencing hotter weather last years or even early of this summer no one where thinking about it. Lowing energy consumption could be a reason but I think it's a lame joke to cover governors disabilities in managing energy and other natural resources.

P.S.1. Last two days we were in one of our friends garden out of Tehran. Rozana only played and played and ate fresh fruit. She is still there but I came to work and will go to her in the afternoon and now I'm imagining her talks and runs at the early morning ;)

P.S.2. I prefer Spain be the winner of 2010 World Cup. Lets see what's happening tonight.

Octapus

Is it believable that a simple octopus was able to predict Germany's defeat in 2010 World Cup matches? It sounds superstitious but is true !!!
Even if Paul(that Octopus) was predicting the reverse but it is the fact that Spain was playing perfectly and somehow this team is the best team in Spain history.

Death

Two days ago when I called Mehrdad's mother, I felt she's cried a lot and after a moment I found her neighbour had died in the morning.I hadn't seen him but always heard he was a good man from Mehrdad's parent. Anyway, I say some condolences and tried to make her calm and then said goodbye.
Rozana was there and listening to our conversation. She was very curious and asked me she wants to talk with her grandma. I was saying she is sick and can't talk to you but she was persisting and suddenly she cried. She asked if her grandma has died?!!!
Up to that day I thought Rozana doesn't know the meaning of death, but then I was sure that she knows. Actually she knows much more than my estimations or maybe I'm underestimating her.
At last after lots of stories she believed me that her grandma is only sick and accepted to talk with her uncle ... I was thinking about that neighbor and death and Rozana's blank mind...

Late Updates

It's not my fault if this page is not updated recently. It could be hot weather's fault or busy work days or tired Somi or ... But honestly I think here is one of my children, should be nourished to be grown up.

P.S.Nowadays reading stories before Rozana's sleep is one of the greatest joys of my life. When she says goodnight and close her eyes with that nice smile of listening to Mehrdad's or mine voice I say lots of thank to the kind God for giving her to us. Good night my dear Rozana, Good night my little princess.

Viva Argentina

Less than 1 hour from now, a semi-final match between Germany and Argentina will be held in 2010 world cup matches. I like style of Germany but LOVE Argentina. Hope to see a nice match with desirable result.

Forced

Sometimes you should be forced to do some tasks which were available in your task queue for a long time. I mean we know they are there but always give them a non-important flag so when The Day come we see they are still there.
It's happening at my workplace. Because next week an important person is coming to visit the site everybody are running, they knew they should do these tasks before but the news of his visit forced them to hurry up. I'm one of those runners but sometimes prefer to sit back and laugh at all these efforts :D

Friends

I was reading an article about 3-year old children. It was saying that this is the edge of making real friendship. They understand who is more similar to their character so try to talk or play with them.
This photo was taken in Bistoon near Kermanshah and this is a Kord girl who was very close to Rozana in that 3~4 hours.

My Room

Last night I slept in my mama's house. Mehrdad wasn't in Tehran and Rozana slept on my mama's bedroom so after 7 years of being with Mehrdad and 3 years of being with Rozana I slept lonely in the room I passed all my high school and university. Even I was thinking about my brown desk which was at a corner and now is disappeared.
I had great moments there. I was happy of having my own room. I studied for konkoor there and was happy of the result. I was thinking about Mehrdad at first years of acquaintance, even now I can remember the first time he entered there ... then years passed and Rozana was in my arms. Again I was there for about 20 days, her infant smell were full in every place and I was baring my pains with my memories...
I dreamt lots of these nice moments last night and am very happy today.

Swimming Pool

Yesterday was the first day Rozana entered a swimming pool. The trainer of the pool said she should be at least 4 years old to learn swimming but her laughs and happiness while playing with other children was very interesting. Of course my mom helped us for being there.

P.S. Today and tomorrow are the longest days of the year in Iran. It means we can use sun beams more than ever. In ancient Iran, people were used to celebrate these days. They believe that we should be thankful of God for having this much gifts, but nowadays we only celebrate Yalda as the longest night of the year. I like remembering both !

Sanction

Now the company I'm working in is in international sanctions. We were almost the only financial institute in Iran who was able to deal with foreigners. Now we should see effects of these so-called arguments against nuclear power right.

Lalejin

These pictures were taken in Lalejin, a small city near Hamedan, which is famous for handicrafts you can see samples here.

D i c t a t o r s h i p

I was reading a mail about a book by Sperber called "Zur Analyse der Tyrannis" ( In German means D i c t a t o r s h i p),which has been published about 25 years ago in Iran and is about behaviour of people who thinks are qualified enough to rule all the people. There is a nice sentence there: " All people are potential to be brave except d i c t a t o r s." With recent events of Iran we can touch the fact easier than before.

P.S. Two nights ago all roofs of Tehran were full of "Allaho Akbar", a religious phrase which means "God is great" but is used for showing protesters anger for more than 30 years in Iran.

Decision

Last night when I was stopped in Mashad airport for wearing a not suitable cloths ( !!! ) and forced to change them, at first moment I became angry of that ugly woman but after some seconds I was laughing at her in my mind. She made me make my decision easier than before. She was trying to put me in her straight way and now I think I'm in MY straight way !!! So thank you ugly woman.

P.S. I've missed all kindnesses of my family which is left in Mashad.

Photographer

This picture was taken by MY little princess.

Holidays

We were in a trip with Mehrdad's family. Again I can swear the one who most enjoyed the trip was Rozana. When we were again at home last night, she came to me and said " MamanSomi I love you very much and will accept all you say.Please bring me again to the see." !!!

Mother ...

I remember the moment I was becoming conscious on Rozana's birthday. It was about 3 years ago but as live as yesterday in my mind. Hearing magic words of my mother who was repeating I'd given birth to a lovely and healthy girl was hearing around. She was making me sure even at this phase of my life when I was a mother too.
Apparently I'm reviewing that moment. She was talking and talking and I was thanking her to be my mother in past 27 years. Something was growing in my mind and it was only appraise feeling to my mom. I wasn't thinking about Rozana at that moment, nor about my pain just my mom...

Today is Mother's day in Iran and I'm sure there is no way of thanking our mothers except giving them just a little bit of affection they'd given us all life.

Thank you my mother for being always with me, beside me, cherishing me, arguing with me, training me, fooding me, nursing me, crying with me,pushing me forward, ....

Thank you my mother.

The most Favorites

Today I read some news about the most favorite websites in the world and comparing it with statistics of the most favorite websites of Iran. First have a look:

World Statistics: Google(1),Facebook(2), Youtube(3), Yahoo(4), WindowsLive(5),Wikipedia(6),Baidu(7), Blogger(8), Microsoft Network(9), Twitter(11), Wordpress(17), Amazon(18)

Iran Statistics: Google(1), Yahoo(2), Blogfa(3), Mihanblog(4), Farsiclub(5), Blogger(6), Tabnak(7), Persianblog(7), Blogsky(8), Wordpress(9), MelliBank(44), MellatBank(45), SamanBank(70)

I think these numbers are talking individually. We are living in a country which has 6 Blogging website in her top 10 ranking and only 1 site in the area of Information. Only 2 banks are in the first 100 ranking.

When most of news sites are f i l t e r e d society will turn to blogs. This is my country.

Luck

Do you believe in destiny? If you are excel in something or bad in something else is it out of your destiny?
I think about this subject lots of times. If I'm living happily and have an admirable family with a lovely princess and am not wondering about earning money everyday is it out of my own abilities or destiny? What's the difference between me and some one who wasn't born in suitable conditions? Why should I be better than her? Is it fair? If not ,so the great maker wasn't fair? But we've heard he is the most fair power in all the world .... but why we didn't start from the same point?

P.S. Although my bro. and his lovely wife are with us but I've missed KhaleSanaz a lot. Hope she is good where ever she is now.

Yesterday

Yesterday was important for me. I did 3 special tasks which need enough courage to be done. I'm sure I'll finish them properly but still am confused how I geared 3 of them at the same time !!!

Freedom

 

I've let my mind free, now I can feel the infinity of boarders. Everything could be unlimited even your kindness or even patience.
This photo has been taken in Hegmatane Hill.Thousand years ago a powerful and wise generation were rulling Iran from that hill.
Rozana is perfect here I think...

Cultures

Some days ago Mehrdad and I were reading a book written about the ways of training girls and boys by an Indian author. Book is full of black and white paintings so Rozana thought it's her painting book and coloured lots of them !!!!
In the part of girls it was written : "Your daughter remains always your daughter but your son is only your son up to his marriage."
We both think it's true and it was interesting that this type of thinking is same in Iranian and Indian cultures.

P.S. My Different Reader has decided not coming and saying offensive words here. I think it's improvement for her. Maybe she is curing.

Red , Nice, Frank

One of the most beautiful places of Iran, 200km away of Tehran.

News

Every morning the first page I visit in the internet is Balatarin.com . It's natural when you don't switch to national TV's at all and want to know recent news come here.
Lots of things happened yesterday : Dariush Asadzadeh's death, End of Cannes Festival and Iranian film awarded,Start of Khordad's protests here and there, ...
But one of these regular news was more interesting: Half of Iran university students are studying in five courses:Computer engineering, Electronic engineering, Management, Accounting and Law. Lots of other engineering fields and also courses related to health or research or art are not concluded here !!! I can't look at these article as a very ordinary one. It means more than a half of our students choose their course just by the reputation and for taking the degree, no need of self-interests or family backgrounds are felt. It doesn't sound good I think.

Childhood

Every reaction of human beings has great footprints in people's childhood.
I think we've heard this sentence at least more than once. Today I was talking with a friend, our conversation was about ways of training our children as future members of this society and concluded the above sentence again.
If you're living in Iran and are same age as me (25 ~ 35) then certainly you remember the only children program which was broad casted in channel 1 at 5pm and lasts only one hour. I remember it was the most precious time of my day, sitting and watching Pesare Shoja, Banel, Dr. Ernest's Family ... during this one hour of our happiness we had 15 minutes for saying Aazan and prayers which causes our program be cut. Even now I can feel that hateress I had to Aazan. Now it's not weired if you don't find anyone who still says his prayers. We are the generation who was tortured by Islamic tools.
Is Rozana going to the same way here in this country?!

Sweet Friday

Today was a hot Friday which I heard the magic sentence of " Mama, I love you." from Rozana's mouth more than ten times !!! Although I somehow shouted at her for doing some mistakes and didn't do any extraordinary tasks she came and kissed me times and times.

I wrote these sentences here to show her, when she is reading these line maybe more than 10 years from now, how much positive energy she'd given me by saying a simple sentence and don't forget saying it again.
Thank you my little princess.

Book Fair

Yesterday I went to International Book Fair of Tehran with a friend and didn't buy anything except some books for Rozana!
It was crowded, hot, dirty and with no properiate guideline for the names of printers. Even Mehrdad who went there after us and wondered about 4 hours came back with almost nothing except children's book !!!
It's painful that our children are not able to read books of DolatAbadi, Behnood, Forugh,Golshiri ,Shamloo, .... and lots of more geniuses who are trying to make us think. I'm sorry for our children and am trying to collect a precious collection of all these books in order to help Rozana for remembering her country in the future.(I think they are introducing their desired country to our children)

Beside it, sitting at a corner of the fair and eating sandwiches with my friend gave me a very pleasant feeling. I think those who were used to go to the fair and are not living in Iran can understand what I'm talking about ;)
My dearest Attiehjoon, Live with your memories of the fair, there is nothing left only a Bal masqué of people who pretends are working in the culture field. Everything was like a circus ...

The Namesake

Some nights ago I finished reading a novel by Jhumpa Lahiri named "the Namesake". This is her fifth book and first novel printed in 2003 and is about an Indian man who has the name of a Russian author, Gogol, and is mistaken so decided to change his name and ...
I'd read some other books of Jhumpa Lahiri and each time I read a book I find how much similarities are in Indian and Iranian cultures.

Rozana

I should write about her new improvements again :)
It's about 14 days that I stopped wearing her diaper. It was easier than what I estimated and took about 4 days for her to control it. Her obsession in being clean makes us stay about 10 minutes each time in toilet and imagine how time-consuming is repeating this job each 30 minutes. We bought lots of gifts for her and at first days she was confused that each time she goes to the toilet she should get gifts !!!
Directly after this controlling she started sleeping in her own room. It was like become an adult in a week. Now she brushes her teeth after the toilet,says goodbye, gives us a kiss and goes to her bed automatically at 10 every night.
Only parents of children in the age of 2~3 understand these lines.
She reads lots of songs learnt in the kindergarten. these songs will be very funny when she says them not properly. Even last night although she was sick she read a song about teachers for her aunt( in her language Moalem is Molalem, so imagine how funny it is!).
She is able to turn the TV and DVD player on and put her desired cartoons in it. She orders nuts during watching them, she paints her imaginations and describes them for us, she talks on phone with Mehrdad and before giving him a kiss orders something to buy,She gives carrots to the rabbits living nearby, she runs to kiss each animal she saw even if it is an angry dog, She has three aunts: Khale-Sanaz, Khale-Hamide and Khale-Fattaneh(of course her real Khale is called Attiejoon).
After writing these lines again I've missed her!!!!!!(We were with each other till 50 minutes ago).

Lady

Last night we were invited to the birthday party of a woman who is very precious for us. She is 47, wife of one a the last election protesters, wife of a prisoner, wife of a sick man , mother of two daughters, a woman with PHD in history studies, a GREEN woman, ...
Like most of the times words are unable to express all my feelings for her.
We were all there to show our unity, even if some unwise people try to suffer them or make obstacles. Even if she asks God times and again for having another chance of visiting her family, even if ...

When I compare her with some other people around I regret. She announces her idea with a loud voice and accepts all results, but some people hides behind their real faces and never ever accepts to apologise.

P.S. I said before only comments with real name of the author will be published. Please try to learn not writing with the name of others. It's a psychological problem which should be cured otherwise would cause into not amendable behaviour disorders. I'm sorry for you my Different Reader :)

Kashan & Niasar

 

When Mehrdad Has Free Time