Short

These days I was alittle bit busy, and also my internet connection had some problems. I'll try to write from Tuesday. Just pray for me. Thx

Sh.A

Some days ago in most of the billboards of the city you could see " How soon it gets late!" . It was an advertisement for selling some stores in one of the new shopping centers.
The sentence was really nice, pushing us for using our times better than before for avoiding of wasting it...
... I had a friend who is not between us anymore, I do not know where is he at the moment ,only know that he is not near ... and his leaving reminds me of that sentence.
Maybe some day he comes and read my weblog ,then I want to show him that we are all waiting for hearing good news of his improvements and crystal achievements in the world. These are lime reasons which make his absence rational.
Good Luck!!!

Rozana, 4 Months Old!

Now my daughter is turning to a real lady, she is 4 months old and totally forgot her infant habits but instead some new one come. Now she has learned to suck her thumb and simultaneously touch her ear with the other hand. Just imagine the picture, everybody says this habit reminds them Prince Charles in Rabin hood cartoon who were a lion and always did it before going to sleep. Yesterday I consult with her pediatrician about it. She said if this action brings tranquility in your child then try no prevent her from doing it, by time passing she will forget. But most of the common people say it's a bad habit which in the case of not prevention will remain for her and will deform her thumb finger. Anyhow lets see what is going on.
...and I talked with her doctor about her head shape. It seems totally asymmetrical and my tryings to fix it doesn't have any success. She gave us the address of a brain professor for consulting him too. I'm only praying God for her health.
Beside all these problems her 4 months old measures were very interesting. She has grown up very well and her doctor said if she were eating bottle milk then she would make her go on a diet but in the case of breast-feeding it doesn't matter.This is her new size:
Weight = 7.750gr
Height = 67cm
Head Area = 44cm

This picture was taken in Yalda:

Yalda & Gurban

After lots of posts with the label of Rozana, now I want to write this one just for myself. Last night I was chatting with a friend. He regularly visits my weblog and suggested to create a new blog just for Rozana instead of writing in her name label. His suggestion was good but when I thought deeper I feel that Rozana is mine, part of mine, somehow other version of myself. It belongs to me by all her properties during her childhood so I'll write for her here. When she becomes an adult then she can decide to stay here or move to a new blog.

Tomorrow is named for 2 incidents in Iran. First one for "Shabe Yalda" which is the longest night of the year and all the Iranian celebrate it as the symbol of being with each other for 1 minute more than the previous night and another one is "Eid Gurban". If you read my weblog,last year exactly ,at the day before this day, I got the answer of my pregnancy test and it made it as one of my best memories. I remember we went to visit one of my friend's fathers who were in hospital. I was really happy and also angry that why I can't share my happiness with the others (Of course I wrote about it here and somehow expressed my feelings out). Any how, we are living with these memories.
I'm really upset that my brothers and Attijoon are not here with us. Their absence is totally obvious and it makes our Yalda not very joyful, but the hope of being with them in future is a good cure.

Happy Yalda to everyone and enjoy being with your families.

My World

Hello,I am Rozana. I am 4 months old. I am very kind. I am learning seating. It's hard but very interesting. These are some photos while I was practicing with mama. My head is big and heavy so keeping it's control is the hardest part in sitting practice. Now I should say goodnight, brush my teeth and sleep. See you tomorrow

A Snowy Day

In the morning when we waked up I see a very nice white scenery is available outside. After coming back from Mashad I'm teaching Rozana to sleep in her own room so she wakes up more than before and it makes both of us tired so we sleep more than before.
These are some pictures of her which I took 15 minutes ago.

Rozana In Mashad

At last we came back. It was Rozana's first trip by train and actually a very best one. She loves being in train because it's movements makes he feel sleepy and at the other times she was only laughing.
She met lots of my family. She went to lots of parties and in one word she enjoyed last week a lot . The only bad part was the absence of Mehrdad .
She went to ImamReza's holy shrine and was laughing while gazing at the mirrors on the ceilings and walls .Unfortunately I don't have any picture from there but you can see her with Yazdan ;)

Going Mashad

Rozana and I are going to Mashad tonight by train. This is the first time that she is going to Mashad and also my first time travelling without Mehrdad. I don't like going alone but he is very busy at work and my prenatal off days will be finished in 2.5 months, I thought if I stay for Mehrdad coming then might be at the end of this year or at least at the cold days of winter so I decided to go there by my mom.
I hope Rozana doesn't catch cold and we enjoy this trip. I'll back with lots of photos but during this time maybe this blog won't be uploaded.
Have nice times my dear readers. bye

Rozana, 100 Days old

2 days ago my daughter became 100 days old. This number is especial for me, I remember the 100th post I wrote here, I remember those exams which I got 100 score, I remember 100th day of solar year which always was the start of summer vacations, I remember those old 100 toman notes which are not seen any more... and at last I'm writing this post here for my beloved Rozana to remember her 100th day of living.
I think it was better if we got a birthday for her but because I'm thinking about her 4 months old birthday party we omit this phase, but we gave her gift already which you can see it in these pictures. Actually she has laid on her new rug which is her parents gift.
Kiss you my little princess 1000 taaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Angry

Mama always says I need D Vitamin so she put me in the sun shine. I don't know how to make her understood that I don't like these sun beams. They hurt my eyes. I prefer to sit down and relax.
Please help me to solve this problem with mama.

My Friends

Before my birthday mama was always worried about finding friends for me, because they don't have any children in nearby (except Mohammadreza who I see him rarely). But now she believed that wherever I am, I can find lots of friends.
Who can say how many friends I have in this picture and who can say where I am?!!!

Thursdays

I remember that I used to write a post each Thursday morning during my pregnancy for Rozana. It's almost 3 months since then and now she is with me ,but somehow I have a feeling of missing those days when she was only with me and by her movings talked with me.
At the moment she has lots of friends( they are from mine and Mehrdad's and herself too). Now I know she will play with Farbod or Hadi and Alireza and Samaneh alot, and also she has very kind aunt and uncles(khale Attieh and my brothers) who will always miss them but is happy of having their kindness. Also some of my colleagues were so kind, they came for meeting her and brought her lots of cloths and toys. I'm sure she will remember all these kindnesses when she become an adult. But there are some other people who always says we've missed her but never came for meeting her or invite her to their houses. It gives me a feeling of cheating and I'm sure if they don't miss Rozana ,she won't either in the future.

Now she is asleep and is smiling, maybe having a nice dream. Because she doesn't have any teeth yet, so her smiles are very funny :D I'll put more pictures for you.

Again thinking about those Thursdays.........

Nice Days

I updated my weblog after a short delay, believe me it's all Rozana's fault. She is getting very nice and funny which I prefer to sit and play with her instead of sitting at computer. I don't know how to describe her improvements to give you my feeling:
Now she knows my mom, my dad, Mehrdad and I very well and smile back when WE call her name and laugh at her. She is trying to speak so says something meaningless but beside her excersises she gazez at our lips while talking to her for learning better skills :D She sleeps with us and Wakes with us too. Now she is getting alittle bit fat because is only on the floor and moving her hands and feet but I'm sure when she starts walking all the overweights will be gone. She loves taking bath except washing her face, so we go and play in bath and at the last phase I wash her face and in her cries give her to Mehrdad for wearing on her cloths. Like other children she likes gazing at her top ,no matter what it is but it's interesting( you can see it in the pics) ....
I can write about her for hours and hours but maybe you get tired so enough for today ;) !!!!!!!!

Rozana, 3 Months Old!

Happy birthday Rozana. Today you are 3 months old and I've put some new pictures of you for our friends. I don't know what will be your reaction when you see these photos broadcasted here by mamansomi but believe me they were very cute that I couldn't resist in publishing them.
Last week you had lots of guests who came to us for meeting you. Of course lots more weren't between us like Khale Attieh, Saeedehjoon, Sabourajoon, Elahejoon, Mahjoubejoon and lot more but I hope we all gather together in near future.

Birthdays With Friends

With some of my friends, we celebrate each others birthdays by gathering to a coffee shop and lightening some candles of a cake and clapping for almost 3 years.It's very hard to manage everything at work for having some extra free time in the afternoon and lots of funny memories of these gatherings are still in our minds: from the busy days which didn't allow some of us being in time, from the fight which happened once in one of the cafes ,from guests which were in some of the parties, from amazing gifts which most of the times were Fattane's job, from my last appearance with almost 16kg overweight... all of these are good memories in my mind. of course there are some bad parts too which can be forgotten very easy.
...Now the members are very busy and didn't find any time for these parties. I think they've mixed work matters with common life so living part is in trouble here. I really hope that we gathered again in a happy and nice party again with our new members of our families ( Rozana and a boy who will be born in 2 months).

Deppressed People

Today I was talking with some of my colleagues. All of them weren't in good mood for different reasons and also were suffering from various kinds of depression. Hard living situations and also the very polluted weather of Tehran can cause lots of problems which depression is one of them.
Weather is so polluted. I prefer to not go even to my moms house (in the next valley) by Rozana ,so dirty, so gray ,so cold and so sad. I hope raining happens very soon.
Rozana is beside me now and is doing her new work she has learned which is bringing her lips forward and poofing... she looks very funny while doing it.
Hope c u all happy and joyful.

With My New Cloths

These photos were taken by mama in a shiny morning, when both of us were in good mood and I felt she is looking at me as a doll and is enjoying of changing her doll cloths !!!!!!!!!!! but after she put on me that red hat, then we found it's not suitable for me any more,actually it was small and I lost one of my hats before using.

Eye Minders

Since Rozana's birthday my connection with my friends have been reduced significantly. While I phone them at least once a week, now I can't find enough time even in the month. So I feel they are forgetting me during my sound fadings. It's not true, a real friend is always there available for you but it's a fact that we people have a very forgetting mind, so maybe when we see someone we remember to ask about her health(although we know she is good because she's in front of us) but when ...
In Persian we have a verbal which says:" ِaz del beravad ..."

Rozana, 2 Months & 20 Days Old

Today we went to Rozana's pediatrician. It wasn't monthly turn but I had some fears about Rozana's head shape which isn't very symmetrical. So we went today for avoiding future problems. Fortunately her doctor said it's not important at all and will be solved in less than 4 months and then she measured Rozana's growing!!! Even her doctor was surprised of her fast improvements just by breastfeeding and gave me some vitamins to be able to satisfy her hunger next months.
... And here are her measures at the age of 2 months and 20 days:
Head Area = 42cm , Weight = 6.2kg , Height = 65 cm
Congratulation Rozana and try to be as energy broadcasting as these days. Kiss you.

Rozana at North

This is me at north of Iran. At first it was so hard for me sitting in my car sit for at least 4 hours and just trying to sleep but when we reached there I found the beauties of nature and enjoyed being in the travel. I didn't found the sound of sea waves interesting so I was only crying beside the sea. My parents didn't understand it the first day and were just trying to calm me by other tools but fortunately at the second day my daddy guessed the reason of my cryings beside the sea and tried not put me there anymore. But I liked jungle very much and above all I liked the warm weather of there. I put on my nice cloths bought by Atijoon which I weren't able to wear in cold weather of Darabad. It was a nice feeling wearing light cloths... and everybody in the hotel were looking at me. I don't know if they hadn't seen any baby since now?!!! Some of them even were saying I'm nice and gorges and I was only looking at them and smiling because they haven't seen me while crying :D
Generally it was a good trip because I was all day with my parents especially daddy who is always late at home and tired. We exercised speakings a lot and now I can say some words in my own language :D
Hope be with all of you again in North. Have good times. Rozana

Travelling

We are going to travel and will be back with lots of news and photos from First Rozana's travel on Saturday.
I hope everything goes well and all of us enjoy this trip. Bye till Saturday.

Be Careful,I'm Looking At You ...

Rozana's Guests

Yesterday Rozana had some guests,actually they weren't some but a lot. All of them had come to visit her so hugged her and gave her kisses. At first she was in good mood and pleased them by her nice smile ,but just after getting their hugs then she became angry and start nagging and then crying. After 15 minutes it was some how impossible for me to calm her so started feeding her. Her uncalmness made them leave us very soon and after their leaving she became very smiley again :D But it was funny for me that her arms smell some perfume, her head smells something else and her hands something else. All their perfumes had some foot prints on her. It was funny but I think the main reason of her uncomfortablenes.
Be careful to not touch an infant while you've wear perfumes!!!

To My Friend

I tried to send you the positive energy, now it depends on you to get it or waste it. Sometimes we are responsible for the bad things happens to us and most of the times we can change the situation if we want. The humans abilities are more than estimations, try to believe yourself !!!!!!!!

Collegues

2 days ago I went to my workplace 4 participating in a exam which I'd attended in it's classes before Rozana's birth.After almost 3 months I saw lots of my collegues. They were all gathered there for that exam and it was so interesting being with them and cheating with each other. It some how took me back to the old days before. Although when I reached home Rozana was very hungry and was crying but still it was a good difference in my common life.
In the evening when I was talking about this feeling with my friend,she asked weather I want to come back to work after 1 year or not. After some seconds I was definitly sure that my decision haven't been changed even after visiting my friends.
They are always there as my friends but Rozana is growing up so fast and needs me right now as her feeding source ,after 1 year I can be only her mother ;)

Toys & Me

A Friday

We used to come to my parent's house all of the weekends since our movement to the new house. Now we are beside them and there is no need to stay there at nights and I think I'll have lots of free times on Thursdays. But now I see even those staying were very joyful.
My brother is coming to us for 4 days. Again his wife and the other brother are absent (a family with absent members always). This is the first time he is visiting Rozana and it could be a good memory for her in long future.

Who says I'm only frawning?!!!

2 Minutes Of My Life

Vaccines

Today, Rozana became 2 months old and we went for her vaccines.Actually I derived alone to her pediatrician. It was the first time that I have Rozana as my passenger ALONE. She was very good up to the office and then her doctor visited her and was so happy of her growing speed. There is a growing table which shows the amount of height and weight and head area of children and by comparing it with your own child ,you can see how healthy she is. All of the measures of Rozana were more than the maximum grade!!! It only have one meaning :She loves eating :D
Her 2 months old measures: weight = 5.450kg , Height = 59cm , Head Area = 41cm
After it,she got her vaccines. At first moment she started crying but it lasts only 2 minutes,after this time she started scanning doctor office and toys very very carefully by her eyes.Even the doctor was laughing and said it's interesting that she is this much careful about her around happenings.
Now we are at home. She had eaten her Acetaminophen drops for prevention of flue and is asleep now. I'm beside her to see her reflections. Up to now everything is OK, and I hope tonight she doesn't suffer very much.
Tomorrow I promise to put her new pictures. Sorry for this delay Attijun ;)

Previouse Weblog

It's 8 Am. Rozana has drunk her breakfast and is asleep. I'll put her new pictures tomorrow. Actually tomorrow is going to be a tough day for her because we should go for her 2 months old vaccines. I know it's not very hard but if she gets flue then it will be harmful.

I found a weblog which I've made about 4 years ago and is in Persian. It reminds me those days which I was looking for a good server to be mine forever. Those days I tried lots of Iranians and at last I preferred blogspot. Now looking at that weblog was interesting: Previouse Weblog

Oldness

Yesterday I was talking with a friend. She asked about Rozana and then said her husband says while you are married and don't have any children then you are always young ,but when your first child is born then the procedure of your oldness starts!!!! I wasn't agree with her of course.
Later when I said it to Mehrdad,surprisingly he accepted her sayings. He says from Rozana's birthday he thinks a countdown have been started for him,maybe because day by day she is growing and it means we are getting old.
But still I'm not in the convention of them. I think we can be young parents if we want. It depends on our behaviour after the coming of children. If we pretend as old parents and only order them and do everything for them without any consideration to our spouse, then it means we think the good days of youngness have been finished .But if we try to adopt to the new situation as another case in the life( not a cause of total changes) then we can enjoy both lives. It's exactly the reason of my decision for not going to work up to Rozana's 1st birthday. I think up to that time she needs me,so I should forget myself, and after that time both of us should start our own lives.
What do you think?

Fall

We are at the end of the first month of fall season, but these last days you were able to feel the smell of cold and nice weather of this season.
Now if you walk in Tehran streets, you can see lots of dried leaves of the trees all over the roads and also night rains and day winds reminds you about it.
I love this colorful season but this year I have some cautions about Rozana's health to avoid making her get cold, anyhow ,today was a great fall day. Hope you enjoy it too.

What Are You Dreaming?!!!

New Life

I'm confessing that everything is becoming better. Now I'm enjoying of being a mother...
There are lots of moments in this new life which have been added to your dairy after your child birth. All of them could be the symbols of your motherness ,some of them are so hard( like washing her feet) and some of them are so time-consuming (like making her asleep) but only one of them is my favorite which I always want to feel it,and it's the moment you are breastfeeding your child. It's the time that I can never describe it in words. When she is satisfying her hunger with you and you are her source,when you are gazing at her eyes and hearing her drinking noises...and when you realy think YOU are her mother.
i'm realy enjoying these lovely moments.

Caspian Sea

Do you trace the news of Tehran conference these days? From Rozana's birthday I haven't write much about politics here but this time it's different....
In 1941, Great Soviet and Iran signed a contract and divided Caspian sea in 50-50 portion with all the benefits of it. At that time the area of Iran's bays were same as today but Soviet accepted it as some other reasons. Then Great Soviet divided into some new countries which 4 of them have bays in the sea. All these countries signed another contract in 1991 and accepted all the international works of last Soviet. But now, imagine what's happening!!! according to all these contracts Iran should have 50% of Caspian sea. but now all the presidents of those 4 countries have gathered in Tehran and has suggested 5 equal pieces for each other. It means we will have only 20% of the sea,in another world ,our president has sold 30% of our national property for the sake of having Russia in his side at the UN for not voting against more sever restrictions for Iran.
This mad person is selling our soil for having nuclear power in his hands, isn't it shameful? I hope some wise man be founded in the leaders of Iran and stop him, let see what will be the result of Tehran conference.

My dream

Lots of people come & go in your life, Lots of bad accidents or good memories are at your back, Lots of bad or deliciouse food you've eaten. They are all kept in your mind and maybe after 10 years your mind refers to them in a dream. Isn't it fantastic?!!! It's happened for all of us alot. We sleep and then we dream about someone or somewhere which haven't thought about it at least 5~6 years but it's there ,in the dream. I remember that in my dreams I'm telling myself that I should remember this one when I'm awake but as usual after 5 minutes everything are vanished.
Last night I dreamed about my 1st year teacher,even I can't remember her name but I dreamed about her. Maybe I'm thinking about Rozana's education and it's showed its reflect this way!!!

Rozana ,52 Days Old

Now it's 12 and I'm typing, Rozana is beside me and is listening to Googoosh. Surprisingly she likes these types of music and is talking with herself. At this phase talking means just saying some unknown sounds from mouth ,they means she is excersising with her muscles to be a good talker.
She is growing very fast. I FEEL her weight gain daily and it's ob
vious in her works. Up to now ,her hands were in gloves but from yesterday ,when I found that she is looking for her mouth by her hands I let her hands free. Now she tries and tries and when she founds her mouth by the hand ,she starts sucking it, very funny looking... and now she knows me, especially in the mornings while she is in good mood, she laughs at me when I'm calling her name and also opens her arms. At these moments I forgot all the tired feelings of the night before and just give her lots of kisses.
I forgot 2 say that my angel suffers from wind & gripping from last month. Her pains come at the evening most of the times and it's realy painful 4 us looking at her tears and not being able to ease it, but thankx God she is getting better day by day. Her doctor said most of infants have these pains up to their 3 months old birthday and she is one of them.
I should go to her ,in next posts I'll write more about my angel.

Eid

May God bestow his blessing and abundance on us all; your wishes be granted and your prayers answered.
Happy Eid Al Fetr !!!

I didn't go to travel. The more I thought ,the more I became sure that it would be very hard for Rozana sitting in her car sit for 4~5 hours. She is growing very fast ,so I'm hopeful of going to a travel in near future ;)

Travel

Sometimes taking care of someone else is good. Sometimes feeding some one else is joy bringing but ALWAYS looking at the smile of that person is wonderful,weather that smile is intentional as her thanks or not.

We are going to a small trip with Rozana. It's her first trip and I'm asking God for her safe comeback, so for some days I won't write here but after that time I'll come back with lots of nice pictures of her.

P.S. Now I FEEL the meaning of having good friends, visiting them in these busy days and getting their positive energy for continue of your hard work is a chance which I have. Thx

Rozana ,40 days old!!!

...

Some nights ago I had guest and I became very tired. Although all the jobs were done by them but I was feeling totally exhausted. Rozana was kept on crying and we weren't able to calm her down. Suddenly I felt I'm over and sat and cried. It's very bad to be nervous while you are feeding an infant. I knew it and tried to stop my tears and it emphasized the situation so at last I continued crying.
All the guests became sad and wanted to help in any possible way but maybe my depression feeling was greater than their kindness.
When they asked me about the reason I replied " I'm tired of taking care of my daughter all the days and nights without any holiday and sometimes without any reason because she doesn't stop her crying most of the nights…" and you know what they answered?!!!
One of them said you should think about those poor ones who don't have any mother near available for helping them. It made me thinking but not a good relief, but another one said:" you should think about those people who are dying for hearing an infant cries in their house but they are unable of having any children!!!!!!!!" .this was really a wise answer. I though for some seconds and then apologized God for being such a bad mother who becomes soon tired. Now I'm feeling better in taking care of her and am trying to enjoy all the seconds of being with her even those long nights which she feels pain in her stomach and keep on crying.

From Every Where

Lots of things have happened during these 2 months which I was dealt with Rozana.
We moved to the new house. It was really a bad event in my pregnancy period. I was unable to do any job and most of the works were done by my parents and Mehrdad and a worker. Our time was so limited and this hurry put lots of stress on us but thanks God at last everything were done.
We were waiting for my brothers to come Iran but they had some important jobs and didn't come. Again thanks God that Atti jun came and her existence was a big help and hope for those days.
While you need people's help then you can tell the difference between your true friends and the others. This surgery and its around happenings was a good experience for me to know better my good friends … and above all my love to my parents is uncountable now. I can feel all the sacrifices they had done for me to make me the woman who I am, I can feel how kind they are and I can feel how wise they were for raising us like this. Rozana should teach lots of things from them especially my mom.
We are in Ramadan now. Most of my people around are fastening except me. Although I don't say my prayers regularly but I really like this month and being in fast. It’s a big sigh for me that I've missed this year!!!!
It's said that after each baby delivery the probability of depression in mother will increase significantly. I should confess that it happened for me, when the rules of your life changes from daily going outs to just taking care of your daughter and there isn't any hope of holiday for this case in a near soon then you'll feel same as me even if that daughter is your everything in life. I didn't let anybody to feel my depression, it was something inside me and I, myself, should solve it. Talking with my friends and trying to do some works which were my daily before, like writing in this blog, helped me to feel better now.
Now, when I'm writing these lines is 7 AM. Rozana has eaten her breakfast and is asleep. Life is coming to the old rules but with a big big difference which is Rozana who is with us.
Thanks god for all the kindnesses he gives us .Amen.

Come Back

Hi all my dear readers.
After almost 1 month ,not writing in my weblog, I'm back again. Yesterday I found some time to connect my pc to internet in the new house and now I can be more online in my free times.
Rozana is 39 days old now. Mehrdad and I have learned to take better care of her and now she is feeling more comfortable with us. These 39 days was really a new experience in my life, excersice of taking care of a creature who is totally dependend on you and just one moment of carelessness could result into her harm.
Anyway, everything is OK and I'm deciding about the future of my weblog.
Before her birth ,only 1 post of each week belongs to her. I think it's better to continue it same as before but this time with her weekly pictures. It can be a memory book for her maybe after 20 years!!!!!
So I'll write as before about anything which rush into my mind and some posts belong to Rozana.
Please be patient in our new come back. Have good times and bye.

Test

Rozana

At last everything is finished or better to say everything is started now. She is with us, very healthy and tranquil, so cute and sweaty and all the other adjectives you need for describing a source of life….
She is 9 day old now. At born date she was 3.250 kg and her height was 50-cm. The measure of the around area of her head was 37 cm and she was healthy so we left the hospital on Sunday noon.

Now I can sit behind monitor and write about her but now with lots of differences, I have a new experience in my life, which made these last 9 days very strange.

Before Rozana’s birth I always thought that it’s a sweet miracle, done by God to make a new inspiration in people’s life but now I look at this miracle from another view:
Have you ever been unconscious? What do you think about those moments, which you are not here, but you are here and they are making a surgery on your body? It was like a dream for me, exactly a dream that was sweet at first and became a nightmare when I was becoming conscious after 2 hours. This time is a gap in my mind; the only thing, which made it tolerable, was the first moment when a nurse put Rozana in my arms. Then gradually I believed that my dream is over and now I’m again in the world.
Have you ever been as weak as a worm, even not able to move your leg or hands and just gazing at your mom or nurse to help you for moving your head to the other side?
Or better to say have you ever felt you are that much weak which are not able to live without your mothers help?(what will happen for those who don’t have any mother available for helping?)
Have you ever asked about your husband just by SMS to avoid making your daughter awake? Have you felt that how much you have missed him although you have been with each other all the day?
These first 9 days were very strange, I wasn’t good at babysitting and wasn’t able to stop her hunger by breastfeeding so she was hungry and just crying. Her uncomfortable ness made me sad and I was crying with her.

I wrote all these problems to prove that having a child is not as easy as my estimations but now honestly I can confess something, her existence costs all these tiny problems. When she is laughing at her sleep, when she is looking forward you to stop her hunger, when she is looking at you after cleanings by calmness …. Then you can only thank God for being this much fortunate of having her.

I’ll try to write more in my weblog but if it doesn’t happen it’s not my fault ;)
In attachment you can look at some of her first day’s photos: