Nowadays I'm thinking about a new finding. Whenever I'm helping someone it's only for my own sake not her/him. I mean I help people to get self-satisfaction not to make them happy. It's somehow confusing. Maybe I help someone who doesn't like me or even help me in need of future or in the past but I still continue helping without thinking about possible prizes.... and whenever I think about my gifts in advance of that help, my soul become disturbed and can't concentrate on my tasks.
Nowadays I'm happy of helping a friend although she didn't pay any attention to me after her emergency situation completed.
