Thursday, May 31, 2007

Happy Birthday My Weblog

Today is May 31th. three years ago I decided to enter the world of weblogs and by finding this blogger.com site and just manging some pages I was there. I remember that day so clearly, I was at work and stopped all my important jobs to search for this new environment and learn working in it. At that moment I decided to write in English to practice my knowledge about this language, in fact it was so hard. At first I should choose my subject,then writing it in a piece of paper at home and edit it, then come to work and type and publish it. Now all these tasks are happening simultaneously ,maybe I've improved in writing in English but I'm still very poor in finding good subjects.
Mehrdad and one of my colleagues were my main encourages and helped me in continuing this job until it became a habit and now I'm really addicted to it.
Up to now I have 397 posts published and about 35000 visitors. With all these kind readers I puff the 3 candles alight in my weblog birthday cake.

Week-27

Hi sweetheart. How are you?Are you feeling good there?Do you feed enough or need more? Next week when I go to the doctor then I'll find all my questions answers. From now we have entered our third trimester. It means that from now you are only growing and I'm only gaining weight. You can't believe me but I feel my daily improvements in size. Night by night when I look at myself then I found how fast it is.
One of my habits in the day and night is just sitting calm and look into your movements and talk with you. Now I now the times of your movements and it's the biggest pleasure in my life to look at it. Maybe one day when you become mother ,then find what I'm saying.
Last week in the wedding,the music was so loud and you were just turning and turning, I felt you are uncomfortable and went far from the source, but I saw how intelligent you are.
from this week your skin has started thickening. I ask God ,with all my soul, to give you a healthy skin( you know why ;) ).Aha,some thing else,because you are in the amniotic fluid at the moment,so your skin wrinkles and maybe will remain up to 1 month after your birth. I'm feeling the moments that we are in the bath and I'm looking at your wrinkles skin.
Every one says I've become uglier and uglier everyday. It's the only time that I'm happy of becoming ugly because it's a symptom of having a DAUGHTER.
It's said that when a mother enters into her third trimester then the instinct of nesting will increase in her. But at the moment with this house which is always waiting for movement to the new one I can't answer this instinct at all. But your father and I are trying to end up this story ASAP.
At the moment of writing these lines I'm feeling your movements :D Have good times honey. Kissssssssssssssss

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Eliminate or Adapt

Yesterday a friend called me and advised something new. She said for your special occasion you should change a little more, you should eliminate anything which is bothering you and try to not adapt with them. From the view of her theory, by discarding all the things which is making me sad or angry ,I can reach to a good level of self satisfaction and at the end reaching to internal tranquility. Of course it's a dream for all expecting mothers.
Now when I look deeper I see it's the way all the times I've tried to do. Lots of times ,I've left a place intentionally or stop a discussion by my own to change the environment. But there is a bad point in this behavior. People will call you selfish and deluded. Because they have made that situation and they think it's true so if you eliminate it ,they won't understand you at all.
I think I'm confusing you, maybe you should be in my shoes to find what I'm saying.Any how ,I won't change my manner and I'll do this behavior stronger than before until the opposite is proven.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Economical Marriage

The Economist weekly magazine in it's last issue have begun a discussion about the direct relation between Marriage and improvement of living style.
It's counted some reasons which you can see here:
- When two people live with each other then the life costs will decrease out of the shared facilities they use.
- For being successful in work you need to have a good public relation ability, in other words if you don't have this ,then you won't be successful... and obviously this is a case which will help you in finding appropriate spouse.
- When two people got married then the sense of responsibility will increase in them and they will put more effort to have better life style. In fact this common life is an enthusiasm for them to work harder and earn better salaries.
- Married people save their money better than single ones and by this background they can decide bigger decisions.(This portion is 4 for married ones and 1 for singles)

I,myself, am agree with the reasons. At least it's so true for myself and my people around. What do you think? Are you agree or in the convention that marriage will waste all the saved money of the singles?!!!

Monday, May 28, 2007

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Beggars

Everyone have seen beggars in their life. They are not only in Tehran or Iran, all over the world you can see them but in different amounts. For example in Malaysia or Turkey they were few of them and nowadays in Tehran there are lots of them.
The reason of people who became jobless and start earning money by this way could be different but in those cities who have rich people they are fewer than poor cities. If that city has strong tourism industry or is an industrial one full of factories or is beside some ports and stations then weak people will find part-time jobs easier and of course in this case they won't start begging.
Anyway, in each case they exist. What's your reaction in front of them? Do you search your pockets for some coins or cheap notes or just nod your head and pass? The way of people's behavior in confronting them could be a reflection of their souls. I, myself ,prefer to not help them in the streets and just give some money or food to those poor ones who I know they are really in trouble, but some days ago when we were in a chain store and an old woman asked Mehrdad to buy her 3 cans of fish ,then his acceptance made a kind of satisfaction in me. I still believe that they are not trust able and maybe people will make them lazy in finding a job, but this is the case we saw everyday in all the world!!!

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Week-26

Hi honey,how are you? You see,how fast time is passing. It was yesterday that I heard I'm pregnant and now only 3 months are left. A friend said because it was so easy and joyful for me it seems this much short,I doubt but I think somehow she is true.
Lets talk about your improvements, you are about 750gr and 30 cm and are able to hear voices and seeing lights. So it's said that in the darkness your movements decrease and in the light you will be more active. Now you react to the sounds more wisely,even the sounds of my belly and heartbeat and digestion procedure are so clear for you, so we should be more careful about sudden sounds.
Here everything is OK. Today is Khale Sanaz's wedding party. I think the only one who is wearing that round cloths is me but being with you in that much joy and rhythmic music is so adventures.
Your mommy is in Mashad and we are alone this weekend but we can have more time to be with each other and talk in our quiet moments :)
...and a good news, your uncle and Atti joon have promised to be with us when you are coming to our world. So you are bringing me a hopeful future.
Yesterday I wasn't in a good mood at work so I escaped to home and today also didn't feel coming,but only the hope of talking with you and also saving my off days for the last month period made me come. Now after talking with you i really feel better.
Keep resting and try to sleep at night. I feel you are more busy in nights instead of days.Kiss you sweetheart,bye.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

A Story

Once upon a time there was a king who was governing a big country. His expenses were more than his earnings so his chess queen advised him to earn more taxes from the people. But the king was afraid of people's riot through this change and his chess queen wasn't agree,so they decided to do an exercise and by result of it choose the best way of earning money:
At first step the king ratified a rule that each person who wants to pass city gates should pay 1 coin, nobody commented. Then he increased the price to 2,3,4 and 10 coins but still people continue on paying coins for nothing !!!
Then they passed another rule. Each person who wants to pass the gates should be raped by the soldiers !!!!!!!!!!!!! Again surprisingly nobody commented and they continue passing the gates with the new rule.
One day a man came to the king for asking a question. The king was sure that his cruel rules has made this man angry and he is here to fight him but his demand was unbelievable. He said because the number of the soldiers who are raping people at the gates are not enough and this has caused long queues behind the gates so he was asking the KIND king to increase number of those soldiers and save their time!!!!!!!!!!!!!
After his leaving the king thanks his chess queen for the wise advice and increased the taxes as much as he wished.

I was just thinking about the situation of my country and I saw that how true this myth is!!! What do you think?

Monday, May 21, 2007

The Butterfly Effect

Last night I saw a film named "The Butterfly Effect". It was about a teenager which was moving between his past and future memories and in each session the story changes as the reason of one small difference in his childhood. At last after lots of travels to the past and future he chose the best memory and stayed there for the rest of his life.

Butterfly Effect theory is a diversion of Chaos Theory which is a main branch of Advanced Controlling Systems. According to this theory all the events of the world have been caused by a reason which a tiny difference in that reason would result in something more different. Let me describe more: Imagine you have 3 balls over a hill near to each other, you push them from the top and each of them go from a different path,the next time you repeat this exam the path would be different because the first place of the balls are not same as before. Or in the weather forecasting ,scientists says even the effect of butterfly wings during flying could result in totally different climate conditions.
This is a big theory and is worked by lots of researchers, i like the general nature behind it and want to share it with you. If anybody knows more about it please let me know too.

َAfghani's

These days lots of news are heard about mandatory expulsion of Afghani refugees who were living in Iran for more than 20 years. Even two of the Afghanistan cabinet ministers were interpellated for not good work in stopping Iranian government .Also yesterday I heard in the BBC that the Afghanistan health minister has said that if these people come back to their country lots of communicable diseases will spread in the country!!! He was mentioning even HIV.
At first glance these sayings were so offensive for me as an Iranian who had lived in Mashad(A nearby province to Afghanistan) and had seen the problems which were caused by these refugees. But now when I look deeper I saw some poor people who shouldn't stay in Iran anymore and in their own country are not welcomed either. They are called as the sources of diseases and are treated more restrictly.
This country was in war for more than 30 years and now the new generation don't like to face reality and room the running ones.
Obviously they should leave Iran but how good it was if international communities facilities this emigration and give them some tools of tranquility!!!

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Question

Do you think this new music has made my page so heavy? Do you have any problem in loading this page after the new changes? Please let me know about your ideas. Thanks

Complete Football Day

Yesterday the final of FA cup was held between Chelsea and Manchester United and of course for the sake of my younger brother I was the fan of Manchester. It was held in Wimbly stadium in front of more than 85000 audience and with the Drogba goal at 117th minute Chelsea won the match. I think yesterday wasn't Jacksaran's day because of his team lost and also his bad result in the final exam!!!
...And today a so-called final is held between Esteghlal and Saipa ,which I'm praying for the Esteghlal's win. Let see what will happen in the afternoon.

Saturday, May 19, 2007

Photoblog-43


Apart from each other but still looking forward !!!(Nature of lovers)

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Week-25

Hi Honey(your father continues calling you as a little princess!!!). How are you?How is there going on? Although you don't say anything but I can guess that you are playing and sleeping and feeding .Even I'm feeling your times of sleep,it's interesting that in the evenings you are totally awake and just playing. I think you are one of those children who are awake in the nights and asleep in the days!!!
You know your father and I and all family are trying their best to prepare all the facilities you need for entering this world. Even last week we went to visit the new house and measure the size of your room windows for preparing nice curtains for it.( Your room is so nice with a green view of around mountains and 2 big windows.) During this session I was thinking about those children who don't have any body waiting outside. I think I'm confusing you so let me describe more. In this world we are living and I always imaged it as a pretty nice one another aspect is always available. If you don't have enough money then it'll be so hard to find any support for continuing life. Yes, maybe it seems so cruel but it's the rule. There are lots of innocent children here and there who have poor parents and confront lots of problems from the first step of their entrance.
I didn't tell you these sad sayings for making you depressed. I only aim to teach you the realities and making the sense of thanking God for all the good and bad things you have. Soon you will learn what I say ,but never forget to think about those poor ones who are as equal as you and should have same admirations.
kisssssss you honey and bye for the next fresh session.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Interpellation

These days one of the ministers of this damn government is trying his best to keep his position as the head of educational ministry. After lots of strike by teachers and also printing those offensive words to Holy Prophet then members of the parliament decided to interpellate him as an unqualified member.
He was the head of my brother high school. I remember those days which he came home and talk about his foolish decisions,now because of his strong relations with a known party he became the number one in education of this country and only in 1 year ruined all the things which was called honor and trust to the government by the teachers.
Whatever the result of this interpellation is, government couldn't clean teacher's memories from bad incidents in this year...

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Murphy's Laws

Have you heard anything about Murphy's Laws? They are some laws which predicts the situations in perfect disorders. For example it says if you are stuck in a traffic jam then always the cars in the other line go faster than you :D(not very scientific but always true.) or it says Every kind action has a no-kind-reaction :))))
In this chaotic world we are living in, these rules seem so true.

Monday, May 14, 2007

Mother's Day

Today is 14th May and is called Mother's Day.Yesterday I received my first message of happiness from Jacksaran. It was so nice like every other First things. I know lots of Mother's Day will come and come every year but just the first one is remembered in all of them. Thank you.
I individually congratulate this day first to my kind and perfect mom and then to all other Mother's who are the first available ones in helping we children.
Happy Mother's Day.

Sunday, May 13, 2007

A Common Day

These days I'm rather busy with a project by my brother so I'm not as active as before in cyber world ,but today between my work suddenly I felt I've missed my weblog so I came to write some lines and then continue my work....Now I see I'm getting addicted to look at this pink page with my photo at the right corner and feeling of honesty here. Sometimes I write for reading your comments or seeing your reactions but most of the times it's for myself and the feeling of managing my mind by writing some lines and expressing.

Today morning we waked up by the sound of those labors who were pouring a new asphalt in our valley. I looked out and guess they will reach in front of our door in 30 minutes so I continue sleeping but suddenly they were there and because we couldn't ride the car after them ,Mehrdad and I were only running to wear cloths and jump outside for bringing out the car from parking. The image was so funny and I missed lots of things out my rush such as Cellphone. I even didn't remember if I washed my face or not :)))

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Week-24

Hi honey, How are you?How is there going on? Of course you are my little princess but I prefer to simply call you Honey.
I'm good,I mean still good. Last Saturday I went for monthly checks and your gynecologist became surprised when she saw my high blood temperature and my high weight gain. Even it was unbelievable for myself too. She said if blood temperature becomes just 1 point higher then I should stay in the hospital !!!!!!!!! I really feared ,but after that day I started a better diary and now everything is under control again. Doctor said because you are a good baby and is not hurting me so my appetite encourages me for eating more :D
Today morning when the clock rang and I wanted to stand up suddenly I heard your heart beat in my body,I was sure it's yours not mine because it was faster than the ordinary sound. so i prefer to stay in bed and listen to this magic sound for 30 minutes. I feel that you are talking with me with this voice ,I was really happy of being a mother and have this taste.Honey, I'm reallyyyyyyyyyy enjoying my life ,first because of you and then your father and family,believe me they are my most hope of life.
Anyway, now we should talk about your improvements, your are about 595gr and 30cm. now your eyes are open and looking for light and also your ears are listening to my heartbeat and talks .Your lungs are developing to be able to breath correctly out of amniotic flood .It means that from now you are practicing breathing in the air for your next trip to our world. Those children who are born earlier have some problems in this phase and should have more cares.
Everyone outside are good and waiting for you. Beside your father and momy and dady and uncles and atti joon I should name Amu Amir and Khale Ghazale who always ask about your health and are very kind. Also some of my friends like Khale Lina and Khale Sanaz and Mrs.Salemi and Miss.Mortazavi who are always so generous. You have lots of friends outside,I only mentioned some of them to make you eager for coming out. When you be here then you'll find what I say.
Thank you for giving me this much energy.Have good times and take care.
Kisssssssss & bye.

P.S. These are some of your photos at this Phase:
Cool Slideshows

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Photoblog-42


This is not a nice photo ,but it's the symbol of the way my baby will think about the outer world. Just a light dot which can be the cover of lots of unknown facts.
In our religious book it's said that our world after death is same as the world an infant enter. These big scales are somehow unimaginable!!!

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

My Expression

At first I decided to eat breakfast at home ,but didn't tell him about my decision and he became offended. Then he said because I eat lunch very soon,so he'll eat lunch with someone else and I didn't become offended because I thought it was so rational. Then gradually I feel we are losing all the reasons of being with each other and now I'm feeling lots of bad thinks. I feel I was only a reason of filling his loneliness while there wasn't any one else here. I feel I was just only a source of positive energy while he was sad and alone and now(thanks God that he is not as sad as before) he didn't need me any more. I feel even my staying at his room is not comfortable any more. I feel he is always angry with me but for my pregnancy never says anything. I feel he didn't even read my blog after that expression of my feelings(although he was one of my main encourager to continue writing from 2004).
and at last I feel this is the last place which I can trust to say my feelings (Of course Mehrdad is not mentioned in this subject)...and I think lots of more things, how easy a relation fades, how hard a good friend is found and how bad is losing him just for not a big reason and as always I say" How good was the old days which our problems were as small as our ages.
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Tomorrow I'll feel better ;) this is the nature of each person.So wait for my fresh come back.

Good Talkers,Bad Listeners

Sometimes I feel that people only need someone to hear them in order to somehow forget parts of their problems. In this case you are a good person till you are a good listener but if you intend to do the same then they become tired or don't have time or feel dizzy.
When for the first time this idea jump in my mind I feel funny about it but now when I see day by day this behavior is spreading all over I become more sure that this is kind of epidemic, maybe a symptom of alone and depressed people of a society and maybe an alarm for sociologists to think about it.
Any how, in such cases those ones who are still listening to you ,express themselves as people who you can always rely on them. Of course this is my idea ,not a general task ;)

Sunday, May 06, 2007

Smart Cards

We haven't got our fuel smart card yet. Mehrdad has searched for it but not very seriously. He is not optimistic in starting this project at the desired time like lots of other people. The side effects of it are so great which never let previous government starting it. Now we should wait and see the result of this show for reserving more fuel for the next generations beside all these money wasting by our governors.

Saturday, May 05, 2007

Tehran International Book Fair

Yesterday I went to Tehran International book fair. I'd known that it must be so crowded and maybe not suitable for me walking that long distance but my curiosity to visit this fair at the new place and also my prepared list of books made me go there.
First of all ,if you want to visit there and are using your car ,go to a subway station and park it here and then by using subway reach to the fair because also there are lots of parking lots around Mosalla but our unexperienced police are not able to lead you in a correct way to reach there in a shortest time. While a great number of cars were rounding, looking at those free areas with closed doors were so disappointing.
Anyway, after finding a parking we went in. It was my first time walking in the Mosalla. A very big place which was built for saying prayers but now is used as a fair. Obviously the construction wasn't done yet, you can see some labors working here and there( I didn't find the reason of their working between this amount of people,at least they can stop their job for this 10 days). Then after a long way walking you can see the main place ,but up to reaching there no pamphlet or booklet to guide you to your special subject were not found. Only by your wisdom you should find your way and also at the door of the saloons the list of printer companies were not found. So for example if you want to find "Nashre Baran " you should search all local saloons.
Beside all these unmanagements , if you became thirsty or hungry then it was impossible finding anything eatable!!!!!!!!! Most of us know Fair as a place fool of sandwiches and other snacks but here ...
It's obvious that finding WC was as hard as finding food and ...
When I saw this great amount of people who came there just for buying their books and this little respection were done I just sigh!!!
But thanks God I found my desired books.

Thursday, May 03, 2007

Week-23

Hi my little princess, How are you?!!! I think you are so professional in surprising your nearby ones. Two days ago when your father and I went to the hospital for your monthly checks and that kind midwife said you are a ........DAUGHTER ,then our faces were very interesting. I was damnly shocked and my happiness feeling was as equal as the moment I heard I'm Pregnant. The more she searches ,the more we became sure that you are a little princess. I was just laughing and looking at your nice organs. You had everything that a princess needs to be born,you were only 437gr but totally complete !!! How fantastic it is.
After the checks I called your mommy and sent message to your uncle and Atti Joon. Even your mommy couldn't believe it and when after lots of swears she became sure ,then I heard a nice smile in her voice.
Exactly the night before checks ,we opened a parcel by Atti joon full of your nice cloths and shoes. Don't worry you can wear most of them as a sport type but I asked her yesterday to buy something suitable for a little princes.You know her, her choosing are always the best.
Now I'm sure that you are listening all my advices about eating good foods and resting. During the checks I saw your face ,legs ,lips ,hands ,heart ,bones ... you see, you are totally complete. Even I saw you eating your leg thumb and itching your ears by your nice hand. You were playing and then for some minutes sleeping. Exactly as a normal and healthy child.
1000 Kisses for you my princess.

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Which Subject

There are lots of subject in my mind for today's writing, from International book fair of Tehran which is held in a religious place for having more Islamic topics or from high prices of Health care activities in Iran which will result in death of poor people or from being happy of living in a modern society which will give you the ability of looking at your infant from 3-D and also 4_D positions and recording this event on a DVD tape for HER future memories.
All these headings are wondering in my mind so I'll give you my news tomorrow....