Sunday, October 07, 2007
...
Some nights ago I had guest and I became very tired. Although all the jobs were done by them but I was feeling totally exhausted. Rozana was kept on crying and we weren't able to calm her down. Suddenly I felt I'm over and sat and cried. It's very bad to be nervous while you are feeding an infant. I knew it and tried to stop my tears and it emphasized the situation so at last I continued crying.
All the guests became sad and wanted to help in any possible way but maybe my depression feeling was greater than their kindness.
When they asked me about the reason I replied " I'm tired of taking care of my daughter all the days and nights without any holiday and sometimes without any reason because she doesn't stop her crying most of the nights…" and you know what they answered?!!!
One of them said you should think about those poor ones who don't have any mother near available for helping them. It made me thinking but not a good relief, but another one said:" you should think about those people who are dying for hearing an infant cries in their house but they are unable of having any children!!!!!!!!" .this was really a wise answer. I though for some seconds and then apologized God for being such a bad mother who becomes soon tired. Now I'm feeling better in taking care of her and am trying to enjoy all the seconds of being with her even those long nights which she feels pain in her stomach and keep on crying.
All the guests became sad and wanted to help in any possible way but maybe my depression feeling was greater than their kindness.
When they asked me about the reason I replied " I'm tired of taking care of my daughter all the days and nights without any holiday and sometimes without any reason because she doesn't stop her crying most of the nights…" and you know what they answered?!!!
One of them said you should think about those poor ones who don't have any mother near available for helping them. It made me thinking but not a good relief, but another one said:" you should think about those people who are dying for hearing an infant cries in their house but they are unable of having any children!!!!!!!!" .this was really a wise answer. I though for some seconds and then apologized God for being such a bad mother who becomes soon tired. Now I'm feeling better in taking care of her and am trying to enjoy all the seconds of being with her even those long nights which she feels pain in her stomach and keep on crying.
Thursday, October 04, 2007
From Every Where
Lots of things have happened during these 2 months which I was dealt with Rozana.
We moved to the new house. It was really a bad event in my pregnancy period. I was unable to do any job and most of the works were done by my parents and Mehrdad and a worker. Our time was so limited and this hurry put lots of stress on us but thanks God at last everything were done.
We were waiting for my brothers to come Iran but they had some important jobs and didn't come. Again thanks God that Atti jun came and her existence was a big help and hope for those days.
While you need people's help then you can tell the difference between your true friends and the others. This surgery and its around happenings was a good experience for me to know better my good friends … and above all my love to my parents is uncountable now. I can feel all the sacrifices they had done for me to make me the woman who I am, I can feel how kind they are and I can feel how wise they were for raising us like this. Rozana should teach lots of things from them especially my mom.
We are in Ramadan now. Most of my people around are fastening except me. Although I don't say my prayers regularly but I really like this month and being in fast. It’s a big sigh for me that I've missed this year!!!!
It's said that after each baby delivery the probability of depression in mother will increase significantly. I should confess that it happened for me, when the rules of your life changes from daily going outs to just taking care of your daughter and there isn't any hope of holiday for this case in a near soon then you'll feel same as me even if that daughter is your everything in life. I didn't let anybody to feel my depression, it was something inside me and I, myself, should solve it. Talking with my friends and trying to do some works which were my daily before, like writing in this blog, helped me to feel better now.
Now, when I'm writing these lines is 7 AM. Rozana has eaten her breakfast and is asleep. Life is coming to the old rules but with a big big difference which is Rozana who is with us.
Thanks god for all the kindnesses he gives us .Amen.
We moved to the new house. It was really a bad event in my pregnancy period. I was unable to do any job and most of the works were done by my parents and Mehrdad and a worker. Our time was so limited and this hurry put lots of stress on us but thanks God at last everything were done.
We were waiting for my brothers to come Iran but they had some important jobs and didn't come. Again thanks God that Atti jun came and her existence was a big help and hope for those days.
While you need people's help then you can tell the difference between your true friends and the others. This surgery and its around happenings was a good experience for me to know better my good friends … and above all my love to my parents is uncountable now. I can feel all the sacrifices they had done for me to make me the woman who I am, I can feel how kind they are and I can feel how wise they were for raising us like this. Rozana should teach lots of things from them especially my mom.
We are in Ramadan now. Most of my people around are fastening except me. Although I don't say my prayers regularly but I really like this month and being in fast. It’s a big sigh for me that I've missed this year!!!!
It's said that after each baby delivery the probability of depression in mother will increase significantly. I should confess that it happened for me, when the rules of your life changes from daily going outs to just taking care of your daughter and there isn't any hope of holiday for this case in a near soon then you'll feel same as me even if that daughter is your everything in life. I didn't let anybody to feel my depression, it was something inside me and I, myself, should solve it. Talking with my friends and trying to do some works which were my daily before, like writing in this blog, helped me to feel better now.
Now, when I'm writing these lines is 7 AM. Rozana has eaten her breakfast and is asleep. Life is coming to the old rules but with a big big difference which is Rozana who is with us.
Thanks god for all the kindnesses he gives us .Amen.
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
Come Back
Hi all my dear readers.
After almost 1 month ,not writing in my weblog, I'm back again. Yesterday I found some time to connect my pc to internet in the new house and now I can be more online in my free times.
Rozana is 39 days old now. Mehrdad and I have learned to take better care of her and now she is feeling more comfortable with us. These 39 days was really a new experience in my life, excersice of taking care of a creature who is totally dependend on you and just one moment of carelessness could result into her harm.
Anyway, everything is OK and I'm deciding about the future of my weblog.
Before her birth ,only 1 post of each week belongs to her. I think it's better to continue it same as before but this time with her weekly pictures. It can be a memory book for her maybe after 20 years!!!!!
So I'll write as before about anything which rush into my mind and some posts belong to Rozana.
Please be patient in our new come back. Have good times and bye.
After almost 1 month ,not writing in my weblog, I'm back again. Yesterday I found some time to connect my pc to internet in the new house and now I can be more online in my free times.
Rozana is 39 days old now. Mehrdad and I have learned to take better care of her and now she is feeling more comfortable with us. These 39 days was really a new experience in my life, excersice of taking care of a creature who is totally dependend on you and just one moment of carelessness could result into her harm.
Anyway, everything is OK and I'm deciding about the future of my weblog.
Before her birth ,only 1 post of each week belongs to her. I think it's better to continue it same as before but this time with her weekly pictures. It can be a memory book for her maybe after 20 years!!!!!
So I'll write as before about anything which rush into my mind and some posts belong to Rozana.
Please be patient in our new come back. Have good times and bye.
Sunday, September 02, 2007
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)