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3 Year old

Tomorrow Rozana will be 3 years old...
It's 3 years since I've changed to a mother and am feeling moments by detail right now. I should confess the first year was the hardest one but honestly it was sweet. Those nights I was dreaming about having 2~3 hours of continuous sleep now my dreams have changed. I have lots of memories these years, one of the best one of course was the day I heard my pregnancy news in the laboratory, the other one was the moment I was becoming conscious after the Cesarean surgery and I was hearing my mom voice, the other one is all the moments I was breast-feeding Rozana, the other moment was the time she started talking and said she loves me ... and I had bad memories too which are not countable against good ones.


One of my best friends always says we should be very thankful to God that we become parents without any certain effort, without managing days and nights and without doing lots of medical cares. It's kindness of God which makes us parents NOT OUR RIGHT. If doesn't happen for us then we shouldn't blame him, we should just be thankful of his generosity nothing else.

And now I'm really grateful of this much prosperity I have and pray to him for making the wish of all couples who want children, true.

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Mehrdad is managing a 3 day trip for next week. Last night he was talking about his plans. I talked about ticket prices and found his calculation is less than mine. I was thinking about the reason of my mistake (in these cases I'm always the one who made mistake, his math is better than mine honestly), but he said he hadn't count any ticket for Rozana and desires to go without her !!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe what he said even now because Rozana and he are praying each other.

Today morning when we were coming to work, Rozana asked his father to hug her into the kindergarten but Mehrdad wasn't feeling good and said will do it tomorrow, Rozana came and kissed her with eyes full of tears and accepted. Really she will be ill if doesn't meet Mehrdad for a certain time...

Lots of couples go to travel without their children. I hear it a lot, but I, myself never ever can be satisfied of such a thing...

What do you think? Am I right or wrong? Should we go alone for the sake of Rozana's health(Because of warm weather Mehrdad says maybe Rozana will be suffered) or should we cancel the trip? I'm doubtful.

In Kindergarten

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Last night we went to swimming pool after Eftar with my mom and Rozana. We ate Eftar in the pool and then went playing and swimming. Mehrdad waited there till 23 for being with us in return path(we are living in a country which is very similar to old Texas and nobody is in safe mode after a certain time).
Maybe it's nonsense for anyone who reads these lines but it was important for me. He stayed at work till that time while he was in fast and tired just for us. It is precious I think.
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Sometimes there are some hidden contracts between couples which makes their relations stronger or weaker. It was one of them for me, Thank you.

Ramadan

Tomorrow is the first day of Ramadan in Iran.
I like this festival from my childhood till now, although there are lots of religoinal subjects in my mind which I'm doubtful and think are lame reasons for leaders to continue their d i c t a t o r s h i p, but I still like Ramadan.
It's a reminder for meeting friends and families who are always available but no time for visiting them. It's an opportunity for Mehrdad and I to eat dinner together while Rozana is talking and singing for us.It's a time of happiness and creativity.
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I talked about all these reasons but nothing of being a better person or saying my prayers on time or being awake all the night for talking to God ... all these symbols of Ramadan are fake for me. Even I don't believe in those 3 holy nights... what's happened to my generation? morals are ruined ...


*!*!*!*Happy Ramadan*!*!*!*

Sea

These photos were taken in our last trip to Khazar sea with Mehrdad's family.

Punishment

Last night we were waiting for some guests, everywhere cleaned and Rozana was playing. Suddenly I saw a piece of the wallpaper of the bedroom is i her hand !!!!! It was the first time she did it and wasn't very important but I taught if I didn't say anything she would persist on her mistake. So I looked at her angrily and asked her to go to the room as punishment. Mehrdad and I were checking her times and again, she lied on the ground and was looking outside, Mehrdad wanted to go and hug her but I resisted.
Anyhow, our guests came and I was happy of being a rational mother, but when they came to the room they saw she is ASLEEP.
At the end of the night the one who was trying to talk with her was me and the one who was refusing and showing her anger was her.

Holiday

Like a blink of an eye weekend is ended(!) and I'm tasting good feeling of the memories.

At KhaleSanaz's house we found that Rozana almost can't dance and all those courses in the kindergarten was fake.

Happy

Today I'm happy without any certain reason. I'm still waiting for that hot-chocolate meeting but I'm not sad.
Talking with my brothers or having my parents as dinner guests yesterday or maybe watching Rozana's laughs and improvements or going to KhaleSanaz's house On Thursday can be the reason. Whatever it is, I'm happy today.

Hot-Chocolate

Sometimes you need something special in your life which wasn't needed yesterday or won't be needed tomorrow. Today I need a cup of hot-chocolate ,in a cafe shop, with a kind friend while not wearing my custom work uniform. Is it very much?