2 days ago I went to my workplace 4 participating in a exam which I'd attended in it's classes before Rozana's birth.After almost 3 months I saw lots of my collegues. They were all gathered there for that exam and it was so interesting being with them and cheating with each other. It some how took me back to the old days before. Although when I reached home Rozana was very hungry and was crying but still it was a good difference in my common life.
In the evening when I was talking about this feeling with my friend,she asked weather I want to come back to work after 1 year or not. After some seconds I was definitly sure that my decision haven't been changed even after visiting my friends.
They are always there as my friends but Rozana is growing up so fast and needs me right now as her feeding source ,after 1 year I can be only her mother ;)
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Monday, October 29, 2007
Friday, October 26, 2007
A Friday
We used to come to my parent's house all of the weekends since our movement to the new house. Now we are beside them and there is no need to stay there at nights and I think I'll have lots of free times on Thursdays. But now I see even those staying were very joyful.
My brother is coming to us for 4 days. Again his wife and the other brother are absent (a family with absent members always). This is the first time he is visiting Rozana and it could be a good memory for her in long future.
My brother is coming to us for 4 days. Again his wife and the other brother are absent (a family with absent members always). This is the first time he is visiting Rozana and it could be a good memory for her in long future.
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Vaccines
Today, Rozana became 2 months old and we went for her vaccines.Actually I derived alone to her pediatrician. It was the first time that I have Rozana as my passenger ALONE. She was very good up to the office and then her doctor visited her and was so happy of her growing speed. There is a growing table which shows the amount of height and weight and head area of children and by comparing it with your own child ,you can see how healthy she is. All of the measures of Rozana were more than the maximum grade!!! It only have one meaning :She loves eating :D
Her 2 months old measures: weight = 5.450kg , Height = 59cm , Head Area = 41cm
After it,she got her vaccines. At first moment she started crying but it lasts only 2 minutes,after this time she started scanning doctor office and toys very very carefully by her eyes.Even the doctor was laughing and said it's interesting that she is this much careful about her around happenings.
Now we are at home. She had eaten her Acetaminophen drops for prevention of flue and is asleep now. I'm beside her to see her reflections. Up to now everything is OK, and I hope tonight she doesn't suffer very much.
Tomorrow I promise to put her new pictures. Sorry for this delay Attijun ;)
Her 2 months old measures: weight = 5.450kg , Height = 59cm , Head Area = 41cm
After it,she got her vaccines. At first moment she started crying but it lasts only 2 minutes,after this time she started scanning doctor office and toys very very carefully by her eyes.Even the doctor was laughing and said it's interesting that she is this much careful about her around happenings.
Now we are at home. She had eaten her Acetaminophen drops for prevention of flue and is asleep now. I'm beside her to see her reflections. Up to now everything is OK, and I hope tonight she doesn't suffer very much.
Tomorrow I promise to put her new pictures. Sorry for this delay Attijun ;)
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Previouse Weblog
It's 8 Am. Rozana has drunk her breakfast and is asleep. I'll put her new pictures tomorrow. Actually tomorrow is going to be a tough day for her because we should go for her 2 months old vaccines. I know it's not very hard but if she gets flue then it will be harmful.
I found a weblog which I've made about 4 years ago and is in Persian. It reminds me those days which I was looking for a good server to be mine forever. Those days I tried lots of Iranians and at last I preferred blogspot. Now looking at that weblog was interesting: Previouse Weblog
I found a weblog which I've made about 4 years ago and is in Persian. It reminds me those days which I was looking for a good server to be mine forever. Those days I tried lots of Iranians and at last I preferred blogspot. Now looking at that weblog was interesting: Previouse Weblog
Monday, October 22, 2007
Oldness
Yesterday I was talking with a friend. She asked about Rozana and then said her husband says while you are married and don't have any children then you are always young ,but when your first child is born then the procedure of your oldness starts!!!! I wasn't agree with her of course.
Later when I said it to Mehrdad,surprisingly he accepted her sayings. He says from Rozana's birthday he thinks a countdown have been started for him,maybe because day by day she is growing and it means we are getting old.
But still I'm not in the convention of them. I think we can be young parents if we want. It depends on our behaviour after the coming of children. If we pretend as old parents and only order them and do everything for them without any consideration to our spouse, then it means we think the good days of youngness have been finished .But if we try to adopt to the new situation as another case in the life( not a cause of total changes) then we can enjoy both lives. It's exactly the reason of my decision for not going to work up to Rozana's 1st birthday. I think up to that time she needs me,so I should forget myself, and after that time both of us should start our own lives.
What do you think?
Later when I said it to Mehrdad,surprisingly he accepted her sayings. He says from Rozana's birthday he thinks a countdown have been started for him,maybe because day by day she is growing and it means we are getting old.
But still I'm not in the convention of them. I think we can be young parents if we want. It depends on our behaviour after the coming of children. If we pretend as old parents and only order them and do everything for them without any consideration to our spouse, then it means we think the good days of youngness have been finished .But if we try to adopt to the new situation as another case in the life( not a cause of total changes) then we can enjoy both lives. It's exactly the reason of my decision for not going to work up to Rozana's 1st birthday. I think up to that time she needs me,so I should forget myself, and after that time both of us should start our own lives.
What do you think?
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Fall
We are at the end of the first month of fall season, but these last days you were able to feel the smell of cold and nice weather of this season.
Now if you walk in Tehran streets, you can see lots of dried leaves of the trees all over the roads and also night rains and day winds reminds you about it.
I love this colorful season but this year I have some cautions about Rozana's health to avoid making her get cold, anyhow ,today was a great fall day. Hope you enjoy it too.
Now if you walk in Tehran streets, you can see lots of dried leaves of the trees all over the roads and also night rains and day winds reminds you about it.
I love this colorful season but this year I have some cautions about Rozana's health to avoid making her get cold, anyhow ,today was a great fall day. Hope you enjoy it too.
Saturday, October 20, 2007
New Life
I'm confessing that everything is becoming better. Now I'm enjoying of being a mother...
There are lots of moments in this new life which have been added to your dairy after your child birth. All of them could be the symbols of your motherness ,some of them are so hard( like washing her feet) and some of them are so time-consuming (like making her asleep) but only one of them is my favorite which I always want to feel it,and it's the moment you are breastfeeding your child. It's the time that I can never describe it in words. When she is satisfying her hunger with you and you are her source,when you are gazing at her eyes and hearing her drinking noises...and when you realy think YOU are her mother.
i'm realy enjoying these lovely moments.
There are lots of moments in this new life which have been added to your dairy after your child birth. All of them could be the symbols of your motherness ,some of them are so hard( like washing her feet) and some of them are so time-consuming (like making her asleep) but only one of them is my favorite which I always want to feel it,and it's the moment you are breastfeeding your child. It's the time that I can never describe it in words. When she is satisfying her hunger with you and you are her source,when you are gazing at her eyes and hearing her drinking noises...and when you realy think YOU are her mother.
i'm realy enjoying these lovely moments.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Caspian Sea
Do you trace the news of Tehran conference these days? From Rozana's birthday I haven't write much about politics here but this time it's different....
In 1941, Great Soviet and Iran signed a contract and divided Caspian sea in 50-50 portion with all the benefits of it. At that time the area of Iran's bays were same as today but Soviet accepted it as some other reasons. Then Great Soviet divided into some new countries which 4 of them have bays in the sea. All these countries signed another contract in 1991 and accepted all the international works of last Soviet. But now, imagine what's happening!!! according to all these contracts Iran should have 50% of Caspian sea. but now all the presidents of those 4 countries have gathered in Tehran and has suggested 5 equal pieces for each other. It means we will have only 20% of the sea,in another world ,our president has sold 30% of our national property for the sake of having Russia in his side at the UN for not voting against more sever restrictions for Iran.
This mad person is selling our soil for having nuclear power in his hands, isn't it shameful? I hope some wise man be founded in the leaders of Iran and stop him, let see what will be the result of Tehran conference.
In 1941, Great Soviet and Iran signed a contract and divided Caspian sea in 50-50 portion with all the benefits of it. At that time the area of Iran's bays were same as today but Soviet accepted it as some other reasons. Then Great Soviet divided into some new countries which 4 of them have bays in the sea. All these countries signed another contract in 1991 and accepted all the international works of last Soviet. But now, imagine what's happening!!! according to all these contracts Iran should have 50% of Caspian sea. but now all the presidents of those 4 countries have gathered in Tehran and has suggested 5 equal pieces for each other. It means we will have only 20% of the sea,in another world ,our president has sold 30% of our national property for the sake of having Russia in his side at the UN for not voting against more sever restrictions for Iran.
This mad person is selling our soil for having nuclear power in his hands, isn't it shameful? I hope some wise man be founded in the leaders of Iran and stop him, let see what will be the result of Tehran conference.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
My dream
Lots of people come & go in your life, Lots of bad accidents or good memories are at your back, Lots of bad or deliciouse food you've eaten. They are all kept in your mind and maybe after 10 years your mind refers to them in a dream. Isn't it fantastic?!!! It's happened for all of us alot. We sleep and then we dream about someone or somewhere which haven't thought about it at least 5~6 years but it's there ,in the dream. I remember that in my dreams I'm telling myself that I should remember this one when I'm awake but as usual after 5 minutes everything are vanished.
Last night I dreamed about my 1st year teacher,even I can't remember her name but I dreamed about her. Maybe I'm thinking about Rozana's education and it's showed its reflect this way!!!
Last night I dreamed about my 1st year teacher,even I can't remember her name but I dreamed about her. Maybe I'm thinking about Rozana's education and it's showed its reflect this way!!!
Monday, October 15, 2007
Rozana ,52 Days Old
Now it's 12 and I'm typing, Rozana is beside me and is listening to Googoosh. Surprisingly she likes these types of music and is talking with herself. At this phase talking means just saying some unknown sounds from mouth ,they means she is excersising with her muscles to be a good talker.
She is growing very fast. I FEEL her weight gain daily and it's ob
vious in her works. Up to now ,her hands were in gloves but from yesterday ,when I found that she is looking for her mouth by her hands I let her hands free. Now she tries and tries and when she founds her mouth by the hand ,she starts sucking it, very funny looking... and now she knows me, especially in the mornings while she is in good mood, she laughs at me when I'm calling her name and also opens her arms. At these moments I forgot all the tired feelings of the night before and just give her lots of kisses.
I forgot 2 say that my angel suffers from wind & gripping from last month. Her pains come at the evening most of the times and it's realy painful 4 us looking at her tears and not being able to ease it, but thankx God she is getting better day by day. Her doctor said most of infants have these pains up to their 3 months old birthday and she is one of them.
I should go to her ,in next posts I'll write more about my angel.
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Eid
May God bestow his blessing and abundance on us all; your wishes be granted and your prayers answered.
Happy Eid Al Fetr !!!
I didn't go to travel. The more I thought ,the more I became sure that it would be very hard for Rozana sitting in her car sit for 4~5 hours. She is growing very fast ,so I'm hopeful of going to a travel in near future ;)
Happy Eid Al Fetr !!!
I didn't go to travel. The more I thought ,the more I became sure that it would be very hard for Rozana sitting in her car sit for 4~5 hours. She is growing very fast ,so I'm hopeful of going to a travel in near future ;)
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Travel
Sometimes taking care of someone else is good. Sometimes feeding some one else is joy bringing but ALWAYS looking at the smile of that person is wonderful,weather that smile is intentional as her thanks or not.
We are going to a small trip with Rozana. It's her first trip and I'm asking God for her safe comeback, so for some days I won't write here but after that time I'll come back with lots of nice pictures of her.
P.S. Now I FEEL the meaning of having good friends, visiting them in these busy days and getting their positive energy for continue of your hard work is a chance which I have. Thx
We are going to a small trip with Rozana. It's her first trip and I'm asking God for her safe comeback, so for some days I won't write here but after that time I'll come back with lots of nice pictures of her.
P.S. Now I FEEL the meaning of having good friends, visiting them in these busy days and getting their positive energy for continue of your hard work is a chance which I have. Thx
Sunday, October 07, 2007
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Some nights ago I had guest and I became very tired. Although all the jobs were done by them but I was feeling totally exhausted. Rozana was kept on crying and we weren't able to calm her down. Suddenly I felt I'm over and sat and cried. It's very bad to be nervous while you are feeding an infant. I knew it and tried to stop my tears and it emphasized the situation so at last I continued crying.
All the guests became sad and wanted to help in any possible way but maybe my depression feeling was greater than their kindness.
When they asked me about the reason I replied " I'm tired of taking care of my daughter all the days and nights without any holiday and sometimes without any reason because she doesn't stop her crying most of the nights…" and you know what they answered?!!!
One of them said you should think about those poor ones who don't have any mother near available for helping them. It made me thinking but not a good relief, but another one said:" you should think about those people who are dying for hearing an infant cries in their house but they are unable of having any children!!!!!!!!" .this was really a wise answer. I though for some seconds and then apologized God for being such a bad mother who becomes soon tired. Now I'm feeling better in taking care of her and am trying to enjoy all the seconds of being with her even those long nights which she feels pain in her stomach and keep on crying.
All the guests became sad and wanted to help in any possible way but maybe my depression feeling was greater than their kindness.
When they asked me about the reason I replied " I'm tired of taking care of my daughter all the days and nights without any holiday and sometimes without any reason because she doesn't stop her crying most of the nights…" and you know what they answered?!!!
One of them said you should think about those poor ones who don't have any mother near available for helping them. It made me thinking but not a good relief, but another one said:" you should think about those people who are dying for hearing an infant cries in their house but they are unable of having any children!!!!!!!!" .this was really a wise answer. I though for some seconds and then apologized God for being such a bad mother who becomes soon tired. Now I'm feeling better in taking care of her and am trying to enjoy all the seconds of being with her even those long nights which she feels pain in her stomach and keep on crying.
Thursday, October 04, 2007
From Every Where
Lots of things have happened during these 2 months which I was dealt with Rozana.
We moved to the new house. It was really a bad event in my pregnancy period. I was unable to do any job and most of the works were done by my parents and Mehrdad and a worker. Our time was so limited and this hurry put lots of stress on us but thanks God at last everything were done.
We were waiting for my brothers to come Iran but they had some important jobs and didn't come. Again thanks God that Atti jun came and her existence was a big help and hope for those days.
While you need people's help then you can tell the difference between your true friends and the others. This surgery and its around happenings was a good experience for me to know better my good friends … and above all my love to my parents is uncountable now. I can feel all the sacrifices they had done for me to make me the woman who I am, I can feel how kind they are and I can feel how wise they were for raising us like this. Rozana should teach lots of things from them especially my mom.
We are in Ramadan now. Most of my people around are fastening except me. Although I don't say my prayers regularly but I really like this month and being in fast. It’s a big sigh for me that I've missed this year!!!!
It's said that after each baby delivery the probability of depression in mother will increase significantly. I should confess that it happened for me, when the rules of your life changes from daily going outs to just taking care of your daughter and there isn't any hope of holiday for this case in a near soon then you'll feel same as me even if that daughter is your everything in life. I didn't let anybody to feel my depression, it was something inside me and I, myself, should solve it. Talking with my friends and trying to do some works which were my daily before, like writing in this blog, helped me to feel better now.
Now, when I'm writing these lines is 7 AM. Rozana has eaten her breakfast and is asleep. Life is coming to the old rules but with a big big difference which is Rozana who is with us.
Thanks god for all the kindnesses he gives us .Amen.
We moved to the new house. It was really a bad event in my pregnancy period. I was unable to do any job and most of the works were done by my parents and Mehrdad and a worker. Our time was so limited and this hurry put lots of stress on us but thanks God at last everything were done.
We were waiting for my brothers to come Iran but they had some important jobs and didn't come. Again thanks God that Atti jun came and her existence was a big help and hope for those days.
While you need people's help then you can tell the difference between your true friends and the others. This surgery and its around happenings was a good experience for me to know better my good friends … and above all my love to my parents is uncountable now. I can feel all the sacrifices they had done for me to make me the woman who I am, I can feel how kind they are and I can feel how wise they were for raising us like this. Rozana should teach lots of things from them especially my mom.
We are in Ramadan now. Most of my people around are fastening except me. Although I don't say my prayers regularly but I really like this month and being in fast. It’s a big sigh for me that I've missed this year!!!!
It's said that after each baby delivery the probability of depression in mother will increase significantly. I should confess that it happened for me, when the rules of your life changes from daily going outs to just taking care of your daughter and there isn't any hope of holiday for this case in a near soon then you'll feel same as me even if that daughter is your everything in life. I didn't let anybody to feel my depression, it was something inside me and I, myself, should solve it. Talking with my friends and trying to do some works which were my daily before, like writing in this blog, helped me to feel better now.
Now, when I'm writing these lines is 7 AM. Rozana has eaten her breakfast and is asleep. Life is coming to the old rules but with a big big difference which is Rozana who is with us.
Thanks god for all the kindnesses he gives us .Amen.
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
Come Back
Hi all my dear readers.
After almost 1 month ,not writing in my weblog, I'm back again. Yesterday I found some time to connect my pc to internet in the new house and now I can be more online in my free times.
Rozana is 39 days old now. Mehrdad and I have learned to take better care of her and now she is feeling more comfortable with us. These 39 days was really a new experience in my life, excersice of taking care of a creature who is totally dependend on you and just one moment of carelessness could result into her harm.
Anyway, everything is OK and I'm deciding about the future of my weblog.
Before her birth ,only 1 post of each week belongs to her. I think it's better to continue it same as before but this time with her weekly pictures. It can be a memory book for her maybe after 20 years!!!!!
So I'll write as before about anything which rush into my mind and some posts belong to Rozana.
Please be patient in our new come back. Have good times and bye.
After almost 1 month ,not writing in my weblog, I'm back again. Yesterday I found some time to connect my pc to internet in the new house and now I can be more online in my free times.
Rozana is 39 days old now. Mehrdad and I have learned to take better care of her and now she is feeling more comfortable with us. These 39 days was really a new experience in my life, excersice of taking care of a creature who is totally dependend on you and just one moment of carelessness could result into her harm.
Anyway, everything is OK and I'm deciding about the future of my weblog.
Before her birth ,only 1 post of each week belongs to her. I think it's better to continue it same as before but this time with her weekly pictures. It can be a memory book for her maybe after 20 years!!!!!
So I'll write as before about anything which rush into my mind and some posts belong to Rozana.
Please be patient in our new come back. Have good times and bye.
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