Tired But Happy

When you are very tired nothing can calm you same as drinking a cup of tea. So here you are. P.S. These pictures were taken in Mehrdad's brother birthday party. I can swear the one who most enjoyed it ,was Rosana.

Book

"Letter To A Child Never Born" by Oriana Fallaci was finished last night. It was a dialogue between an expected mother and her fetus, she is not sure about carrying him or letting him die....
It was good but not perfect and some sentences noble: Optimists are brave. A little reality is better than probable much in future. ( Thank you KhaleSanaz for the hints.)
I found something after the book. Feelings of a mother who have been informed of her pregnancy is same as others, a complexion of hope, happiness, fear, worriness, changes of future plans, ... but the way that mother guides her feelings is unique and it's the point of having different destinies for millions of fetus.

P.S. This is my 800th post. Such a long time of being here...

Internet

It's a fact that with availability of Internet we can spread news even faster than wind. Whenever you decide you can publish a page and if it's worthy it will be seen more than 1000000 times in an hour.
I read an article in Makhmalbaf site and I'm not same as yesterday any more.
It's the art of an author.

Sensorship

I can't write whatever I like here. Lots of subject are in my mind, from all over the world and especially from my beloved Iran but I can't write about them. If I wasn't known as Somisahara Assaran here then I'd write about Tehran campaigns against government ,my feelings after arguments with Mehrdad or friends,talking about forbidden matters and etc. For all these and some other reasons recently I'm trying to not write about anything in my mind.
Exactly for this reason I deleted my ideas about a comment for the last post twice. I wrote and deleted, again after some minutes wrote and deleted, at last I was sure that my frankness shouldn't hurt anyone who is important for me in a case which is not important in these days of Iran.
Now I haven't said my ideas for him but I'm happy that probably he isn't bothered.

Traveling

We are going to Mashad today, not for participating in Ashoora-Tasooa ceremonies but for being with my beloved ones while they are gathered there.
I don't know why crying for ImamHossein is always meaningless for me. We have lots of live samples of people who have fighted for giving liberty to others and are not with us any more. Why should we forget them for the sake of someone who did a same action 1400 years ago!!!
I'm always confused in these dates but now happy for meeting my grandma, aunts, uncles and cousins.

Funeral

Two night ago Ayatollah Montazeri, One of the supreme leaders of green campaign of Iran, died at the age of 87. I'm sad and say my condolences to everyone who knows him and was his follower.

Happy Yalda

Tomorrow night is Yalda (Longest night of the year) in Iran and we all gather in our parents home for having some nice moments and teach our children the way of appreciation to the old. This is the 3rd Yalda for Rozana and they are having a party today in the kindergarten. Just my parents were invited !!!!!! so now I'm just sitted here and waiting for their arrival to ask about happy times of being with kids and NaneSarma. Yalda without any snow is like coffee without any sugar or christman without pine. I hope you all have nice times beside your beloved ones at this longest night of the year.

National Boarders

Last night I finished reading a book named "Da" and is reprinted about 120 times in Iran. For those who are living here number 120 is not usual. Only educational and religious books have this much copies. Anyhow I bought it about 14$ (It's somehow expensive) and read it every night. It was memories of a woman who was living in Khoramshahr before the start of Iran-Iraq war and then by her memories you can find what was happening there.
Generally speaking I hate the personality of the author. She was rude and pretend that she was the only brave one there and all her actions was correct. Just having a clear view of Khoramshar( Which is the place of Mehrdad's birth) was good for me. Between reading the lines I was thinking what would happen for Mehrdad's family if they hadn't move to Tehran some months before the start of the war?!


Today morning I read between news lines that 11 Iranies soldiers had entered in Iraq and occupied an oil territory near the boarders. Iraq government didn't do any reactions and is waiting to solve the problem diplomatically. What if another war happen? Who is responsible for people who are dying for the sake of their leaders Passions? ...

My Little princess

These pictures were taken professionally with an ordinary camera by Attijoon. They've left us again and we are living with their nice memories.

Migrations

Some years ago just wealthy Iranians were able to send their children abroad for education or very wealthy ones were able to migrate to new countries who were after educated citizens. But recently especially after last presidential election in Iran everything changed. Even some unreachable ones like USA give student visa or other types very very simpler than before.

Most of my friends and families are going. It's not new but always sad.I was able to go some countries but for some reasons which are still reasonable didn't go, so I've stayed and watch their departures.

Between all these events Yaser's was one of the hardest for me, it was new and he was going to a country where didn't have any one to help and my younger brother was better.

But now unwantedly I'm counting the days of my so-called sister departure. Going to Australia means you are never able visiting her in her living land. Means that you are not able to talk hours and hours about your problems and at last find there were not any serious problem. Means that you will lose someone who criticizes you kindly not to show your mistakes but to make them solved. Means that Rozana will know her dear aunt by photo album and DVD's. Means ....

I am sad of these thoughts and angry of busy days which are obstacles between our regular visits.

P.S. I runned comment controlling before being posted publicly not to sensore ideas against but to stop publishing offensive words some known readers put here.

E.C. Segar's Birthday

Today google logo is changed to Popeye who is eating spinach. It's for the sake of E.C. Segar's birthday. Although he died in 1938 but his favorite cartoon character , Popeye, is still one of the most popular ones all the world. I remember the first cartoon which I saw with our home video( old VHS ones) was Popeye. I can feel that great taste of watching it.

It's respectful you do something wich is remembered even after 80 years of your death. We can see lots of people around who are same but also we can see thousands who are forgotten very very soon after their passing away.
I don't want to be a usual one and maybe it's the reason of thinking to death times and again recently.
I want to go to Mashad and be in the cemetry my aunt is burried and just sit and think about whole life. I'm not depressed but have missed being there very much. Give me the right of missing cemetry even if living happily with my beloved ones.

In Holidays

Tonight I have about 23 guests and I'm writing in my weblog from my workplace!!!!! It's one of those cases which my mom always says I'm careless.
Rozana's talking is getting better and nicer and also funnier each day. Some nights ago when we were in a birthday party she was singing "Happy Birthday" song and also dancing all the time. Although it wasn't her birthday party but everyone confirmed that the one who most enjoyed it was Rozana. Her enthusiasm for starting to dance while hearing music in A Very Loud volume is amazing for me. She runs with her short height between those tall men and women who are dancing without any doubt maybe she shouldn't be there. I like this sense of living lively without borders she has. She does whatever thinks is correct, honestly and deeply by her soul. I like to be the same.
I'll try to put her new photos after holidays. Good Luck.