Mornings

These days, in the mornings, I go walking for 2 hours in Niavaran Park. Before it, for 5 years all the mornings I was at work and on holidays I was asleep out of the week tiredness. Now I have a new feeling.
When I go there, I’m looking at nice birds who are looking for food and playing in the waters which is everywhere for watering plants. I see lots of old, green cloths, gardeners who are changing the watering source positions for better results. I see lots of women who are coming to park for walking and going to aerobic center. I see lots of little children who have been brought to park by their trainer to use sunbeams and play in the park. I see old men who are laid under the cold shadow of the trees and reading their newspapers… and in short I see another life, which is current there. It’s totally different from what I expect from a morning in the park before. It’s not wasting time, it’s just enjoying it.
Sometimes I think I’ve not lived completely during my work time. Always I’ve been in rush for being at time in the morning and then just working and shouting and …until the left time. But from other hand I know there are lots of people who are dying for having a job like mine. So it’s better to just enjoy the moments and don’t think about the future!!!

Birds

Do you remember those little birds I wrote about them last year and the year before it?!!! Whenever those birds come to my mom house a good thing is happening in our family. Before my marriage and before Yaser’s marriage these birds come and sat on their eggs and left us with 2 nice little birds.
Now they are again with us, waiting for their children to come out of the eggs. Maybe you think I’m somehow superstitious but they are available always before good news. I believe it….

Iraq The Winner

Today the final football match between Iraq & Saudi Arabia was held and as you know Iraq won the game for the first time in its football history. Up to now lots of Iraq team fans have died during ceremonies after their team wins. Definitely some more death will happen today but the important thing is the magic language of football, which is international, and no matter to the social condition of a country, can produce hope and enthusiasm in the depressed people of a country like Iraq.
I remember during Saddam governing era, his son was the administrator of football and whenever they lose a game they should be waiting for lots of cruel punishment. Of course they never win a tournament like this one at those times. Punishment is never as useful as praise. It’s a fact!!!

Father's Day

In my childhood I had a grandfather who was so rich and strong. Most of the people in Mashed know and respect him. He was the symbol of a complete man in my childish mind. Always I think, with being of him our family will never be separated (now I know it was somehow a true story).
He had some gardens in a small village near the town. Most of the farmers fear him because whenever they want to escape from working, he would punish them.
After years when he became about 85 years old, one night he got a mental disease and after that he had to sit down on a wheelchair until his dead, which was about 1 year after it.
We children looked at him but never can solve this question that how our strong heroin is this much weak now who is not able to walk by himself. I think even he felt our feelings because after that night he never went to the village to not let the farmers see him in that situation. He wants to not ruin his nice face for them… and after a year he died.
After his death, my father’s family somehow chattered. We moved to Tehran, my dear aunt faced into those unordinary problems, the unity of family fades … and lots of other matters. We are all family with each other, miss each other, try to solve our problems… but the closeness feeling is never like those nice old days.
Now when I look at back I can understand the necessity of a powerful father in a family. It’s like the base of a ferry, which should be there for having a safe travel, but when it’s there maybe some people don’t remember its values.

Today is called Father’s day in Iran. I think fathers are the bases of family ferry; they should be there in order of having a safe travel for all the members. They should be there to advise we young children for finding prosperity in our lives. They should be available to give us the feeling of protection and security. They should be there as a source of experience and kind advises….
I congratulate it first to my nice dad and then to Mehrdad’s father. This day is only a remembrance of our grandpas and fathers who are always with us.

Week - 35

Hi my sweet heart. How are you? I think you are a little bit tired, but your movements are as regular as before!!!
You are really big now. Last time when we met your gynocologyst, she said you are even bigger than her expectation and you are totally ready for coming to our world. Your estimated weight is 2.5 kg and your position is directly at the right place. She was so glad of being your doctor because she thinks you will be one of those with the least problems.
Today we moved to your daddy's house with just one suitcase and lots of memories behind from our old house. It was the first house that your father and I had. I remember 5 years ago when we bought it, we were so happy and never thought about its limited space. Now because the bigger one is available, we are leaving it but all the good memories will be with us.
Your father is so happy too and we had chosen a new name for you, it will be a surprise untill your birth. The day after tomorrow is called Father's day in Iran, give me a hint,what should we buy for your father to say we remember him?!!! If you have any suggestion just tell me.
...And all other of your family are good. 2 days ago was the first marriage anniversary of your uncle and Attioon. Last year you weren't with us in their ceremony but from now you can feel it. Also Khale Ghazale always asks about your health, I hope after your birth, you become good friends with her or maybe her coming child in the future :D

I was thinking about something else too. You are coming to us in less than 1 mounth. Should I talk to you here like before or just ... ? !!! Maybe my nice readers can help me.
Have fun honey and keep resting . Kiss for you naughty little princess. Bye

Sad Somi

OK, all the workings are finished. It means that from now my living will change effectively in a new manner. I have lots of hopes for future, changing house and giving birth to my child are very great enthusiasms for being happy. But after 5 years of being with my nice colleagues, saying good morning to all of them, learning new things from Him, solving problems with each other(most of the times he solves them), being in the internet from 8Am to 2Pm... They are great changes. And I should confess that I somehow fear about the future. Sometimes I say to myself that there are lots of mothers who died during child birth procedures............ I know they are all bad thinkings ,but they are probable.
Today I take pictures of most of my colleagues for saving them in my camera memory (in fact in my own memory) to see the changes after 8 months ,when I come back( of course if I come back to work.) and my feeling is so weired.
I'm feeling somehow sad today. Even I feel crying ,but I'm sure all these temporary feelings will pass...

Week - 34

Hi honey,how are you? Please keep quiet today because I'm really busy.( What a though mother you have !!!)
As you know, I'm collecting my wares at work place. Now I've almost finished my personal wares and waiting for your daddy to come and bring my computer to the home. It's good that I can have my own computer at home for this 8 months because lots of settings are done here which are needed in the future. The more I pack my packages,the less I feel missing my workplace. All of these means that You are coming.
Do you know that up to now we have passed 85% of our common living?! Isn't it wonderful. Now you are about 2 kg and 42.5cm . Everything is OK,don't worry ,just keep resting.
At last your father gave my mother's day gift. It's a Sony Handycam for recording all of your nice actions before and after your birth. Maybe when you are reading these lines next decade !!! then you will say how old this model is. But believe me that it's one of the bests at the moment. You'll learn to get used to this rapid technology changes.
Honey ,I should go to finish my work today, so it's a little bit shorter than before. But because it's the announce of being with each other all the day, I love it.
Try to keep quiet for only today and rest. Kiss you my little princess 100000 times. Bye.

No Car

ٌDirectly after announcing the start of fuel limitations in Iran ,we people who are living in Tehran,saw lots of differences. First of all the traffic jam was noticably reduced, as a result the air pollution reduced too and the users of public transport services increased alot. These changes lasted only for about 1 week. When people saw that there isn't enough bus or taxi and also no especial facility is predicted, they gradually started using their own cars, with an optimistic look to the future that government can't continue his project and should sell gas more than their shares.

Now the side effects are becoming more obvious. Because there isn't any expensive gas available in the stations so if a car finishes his shares ,it should wait in the parkings to get his new share after 6 months!!!!!!!!! Because of this,lots of cars who were working in the car agencies, have lost their jobs and are at homes. Also those people who need their services are in great trouble. Yesterday when I want to return home ,as usual I went to take one of these cars ,but the agency was suspended,because most of the cars shares were finished. Fortunately I found a car to come home but I think next week,while more cars are parked in the parking ,the side effects of this unwise plan will show themselves.

Health

Today I heard about a friend who had an accident last week and now his leg should be in plasma for about 3 weeks. It was really a bad news in the morning and I wish him become better ASAP.
I think just in the lack of health (for ourself or one of the close friends) we will understand the real value of this facility by kind God.

Week - 33

Hi my sweatheart, how are you?I think you are good enough to listen to me and care about us ,because I see just whenever I'm in a comfortable position then you start moving and reminding me about yourself, in other cases which I'm busy,you are silent and waiting for my free time. But don't worry,I'm going to work only next week,after that ,we are all day with each other,playing and chatting until your birth time and even 7 months after it.
Yesterday Farbod was born.Let me see,do you know the meaning of being born? It means that he entered from a dark and small place to a bright and unlimited big place which we are living in. It's the last procedure of the miracle of human producing by God.
...Lets talk about your family here. Your father and I are good, just a little bit worried about our home if it's ready up to your coming time or not. Daddy always says it's not a cause of getting stress about but you know I like to bring you into your nice room with walls coloured in purple and yellow and everything in the right order. We should wait to see what's happening in the future.
Yesterday your uncles and Attijoon went to watch Iran game vs Uzbekistan. I think you'll learn to like football and it's news because all of us in the family like it.
Gradually I feel tired when I'm sitting for a long time infront of monitor. It means thant I should reduce my work with it. So I think it's enough for today. Have good times there full of tranquility and happiness. Kiss you honey,Bye.

Hey Mehrdad khan, if we were living in Malaysia ,then we would color our faces and buy some Big " Bugh" and go to the stadium for encouraging Iran national football team like jacksaran and his friends.
I really wish that I was there at least for today.

Last Days At Work

I'm making myself ready for staying at home for about 8 months. The feeling I have these days is so weired. Even now I can start my pregnancy off days ,I remember this opportunity always as a dream. For more than 4 years I've waken up early, worn my cloths, gone a long way and stayed at workplace for about 8 hours and then the reverse procedure. Now I'm pausing this habit for the sake of my little angel. It means I can't see my colleagues every day, I'm not Mrs. engineer any more, I shouldn't think about my tomorrow lunch as always, I don't have any high-speed access to the internet and lots of other more restrictions. Of course all of them are nothing in comparison with my child birth but believe me that I'm missing all of these routines of my life even from now.
I guess after the child birth I won't have very free time to think about these nostalgias but missing my friends is though to bare.

Time

If you were able to manage your time passing speed ,then you'd decide to make it faster or slower?!!!
Sometimes we wish to maintain in a good situation,to do more tastes and enjoys. In this case of course we'll wish longer seconds. But in the reverse situation, we are only praying God to finish it ASAP.
Now I'm in a paradox of these wishes. From one hand I'm thinking about shorter seconds for movement to the new house and from the other hand I'm wishing for longer seconds to keep my angel with myself.
Yesterday while I was thinking about all of these I started laughing,because if God would listen to all irrational demands of his creatures, then what a funny world we had had!!!

Week - 32

Hi my sweetheart, how are you? How is there? I think it's really getting hard for you to play ;) but fortunately less than 2 months are left.
You are about 1.7kg and 40cm !!! The wrinkles of your skin are disappearing and your hairs are obviously there on your tiny nice head. It's said that if you'll be born from this week,then you won't face into any major problem because all of your organs are shaped completely but the more you stay there,the better it will be for your next life beside us and the less you will be sick.
We are all good here, yesterday lots of my friends called me for the mother's day. It was obvious that your coming is bringing me joy and honor and happiness. Today and tomorrow we will visit your grandmothers, so you will have 2 days full of spirit.
...and your father, he is as good as before and yesterday told me that his summer holidays are exactly at the time of your birth. It's really good because he is beside me at the time of pain and waits and also because your uncle and Atiijoon are coming to Iran we can go lots of places at those days :D From now I'm tasting it.
Do you know why I'm less in breath taking these days. The reason is interesting. The bigger you become ,the more space you need. So my lungs won't have enough place in breath taking circulation and it will result in my lack of breath taking.
I want to consult you about my gift your father is giving me. He gave me 2 selection, I should choose a new cellphone or a new digital camera. I think another digital camera will be useful and this old cellphone will be with me until you become naughty enough ,then I'll gave it to you for breaking and making your father buy me another one :D It's fair.
As usual I say, keep resting and be a good girl in feeding. Kissss honey.

Mother's Day In Iran

Tomorrow in Iran is mother's day. First of all I should congratulate it to all kind mothers ,especially my mom and also Mehrdad's who are the symbols of kindness.
The second thing I want to talk about is a news I read in the internet: Mehri Mehrnia who is one of the famous actress of Iran and had played in lots of films such as Shazdeh Ehtejab, is in an old caring center and no one has visited her for a long time. Maybe it's the sad story of the last days of lots of us who won't have any children (or any good children) to dare enough for our carings. But how good it was if children just think about the holy sacrifices of a mother which should be done to rise them, then think about the place of caring them for the last days.
These old people are treasures of our life ,but some of us remember their values right after their death.

A Story

Once up on a time ,there was a man who had passed all his life with love and kindness. Then he died,after his death everyone tells he must be in heaven because he was so kind.
At that time heaven wasn't as modern as today,so when the man reached there, one of the angels look carelessly at the list of valid entrances and didn't find his name so she sent him to the hell !!! For hell entering no one asks for your validity,so the man went into the hell without any problem.
After some days, Satan came to that angel angrily and comment about her mistake, he said after the entrance of the kind man everything in the hell is in a big mess,everyone are talking with each other, listening to each other, hugging and kissing each other and lots of other more good jobs which are the result of the existence of the kind man...

At the end of his story Paulo Coelho has written: "Live with such love in your life which if they put you in the hell as a mistake then Satan,himself, returns you to the heaven."

Lazy Somi

Today I went to work 2 hours later,at the morning I felt sleepy so I woke up later. But when I reached to work I saw women are going out. For the mother's day in Iran, there is a celebration at work,but all the women were going home.
If I knew we had this festival then I can not come to work :D I've lost another lazy day!!!

Fat Somi

Some of my friends and I gathered at birthdays in a cafe in the afternoons and celebrate that one who is his/her birthday. Yesterday we had another meeting. Mehrdad was there so I enjoyed more than before but now ,when I'm looking at the photos and comparing them with our last meetings then I see how gigantic I've become !!!
I should confess that although I'm praying this next family member as my idol now ,but the feeling of being fat and ugly was somehow shameful.
Don't make mistake, I'm daily thanking God for giving me this much kindness and turning me to a mother.I know lots of people are dying for have a child but they are not successful,it was just my feeling after looking at the photos.