Yalda

Tonight is the longest night of solar calendar in Iran and as an ancient ceremony we all gather to gether, with our grandparents and friends and celebrate this chance of friendship.
Yesterday a gathering was held in Rozana's school for this sake and all grandparents were invited too. I should go to university so missed the chance of watching MY ROZANA singing Hafiz but my father was there. In the afternoon when I meet them, they were only talking about good moments they had ..., and suddenly I feel sorry for myself. At my childhood there wasn't any YAlda ceremony nor any parent attendance in children's programs. Now Rozana is enjoying of being with my father at school. I really felt sorry for Yaser and I.
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By the way, we are going to Mehrdad's parents tonight, My mom is in Mashad, My dad is invited to one of his friends, Yaser and Javad and Attiehjoon are abroad ... and we are not together again.

Hope you all a night full of prosperity and happiness, with your beloved ones, with lots of delicious food and fruits, with someones who are talking about years ago and reminding you the price of life, ..., hope you all a happy happy Yalda.

Welcome Winter

Last 3 days was like a blink of an eye...
I got the news which I was waiting for but I believe everything is a matter of relativity and time. Now I'm not sure if the news is still good or not.
Tehran was snowy recent days, my mom is in Mashhad and Rozana's School was off out of the cold weather. Everywhere is slippery and hard to walk or drive. Rozana went to his uncle's last 2 days... I don't have any sister but always wish a one, someone who is always available and won't be angry to you more than 5 minutes and you can count on her whenever you wish. Khale Attieh is my sister of course but not nearby, and I have some friends like Khale Hamide and KhaleSanaz or even Khale Attieh's mom who are kinder than a simple friends. Now I'm really happy of having them who are reliable as kind people near me.
Rozana and MohammadReza and Dorsa enjoyed of playing in snow yesterday and I regret losing the chance of watching them. Thank you Khale Hamide for all of your generosity.

Something New

These days I'm waiting to hear something good, I'm waiting for some good news. Lets see what's happening in the future.

Iranian Sales

Yesterday I got a message by GEOX advertising their new limited sale. It was a nice rainy afternoon. My mother and Rozana and I went to a branch for buying something. Recent years most of our shoes was from this brand. Its more expensive but also long lasting and fashionable. But yesterday I was really surprised. You weren't able to find anything less than 350000 toman (150$) and most of the shoes were priced over than 550000 toman. Maybe it is rationable in US Dollars but with our local salaries it's not affordable.
I was only happy of walking with my mom and Rozana in the rainy climate, only happy of that.

Kish Island

 I attended in a tutorial course by my work in Kish Island last week. Our trip took about 4 days and my feeling about the absence of Rozana and Mehrdad is not expressible.  I'd gone there with Mehrdad about 6 years ago and even at that time I feel there is no enough attraction for tourisms to afford it. Now I think it's again the same. When you can go to environs countries like Turkey and enjoy unlimitedly, why you spend lots of money for being in such a remote place.
By the way, I went to scubadiving with Neda for the first time of my life and I enjoyed this noble feeling.
Thanks God that Tehran is rainy from Wednesday and we have another chance of living !!!!!

DarAbad Fall Nature

North Of Iran

Last week we went to North of Iran with my parents and uncle. Being with them is always a tranquility of life but being with my uncle was a surprise. I reviewd  my childhood  with him in Rozana's actions and I see I'm growing in Rozana.
Thank you my ferifere for giving me this much pleasure, kiss honey.

Reminiscing Princess Arrival NEWS

No matter I believe in Ghurban or not, it's a fact that it's the reminder of my pregnancy news  and makes me damn happy each year. Rozana is a gift in our life which I don't know how to appreciate it from God.
6 years ago when I heard the news and shared it with Khale Fattaneh and Mehrdad and my mom, I was walking on the clouds. We bought a sweet box and went to my father, he got the news of his grandfatherhood in such a day and I'm still tasting the sweet taste of reminiscing that day.

P.S. Today I heard the voice message by ArefeSadat Tajzadeh, which was sent from Canada to his prisoned father and I wasn't able to stop my tears. Hope all the prisoners who are in jail because of the method of their thinking be free in a near future.

Near to Convocation

It's about 6 PM and I'm sitted in the conference hall of AmirKabir University, listenning to the Seminars which are presented by the students. My turn was in the morning and I started studying some of my lessons and tried to concentrate on others presentations but now I'm tired and missed Mehrdad and Rozana.


KhaleSanaz says Iranian women are not accustomed for being out after the sun down, I see it's some how true now. Although, it's just 6 ,I wish I was at home.

Powerty

I've traveled to lots of countries especially from the moment Mehrdad married me. I was figuring out about the prices we paid for making those memories :
- 9 and 8 years ago it was about half of my monthly salary (Turkey ,Emirate)
-7 years ago it was about 2/3th of my monthly salary (Malaysia)
-6 years ago it was half of my salary (Turkey)
- 4 years ago it was about my whole monthly salary (Malaysia)
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-2 years ago it was free (Cyprus) (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) ,because we got foreign exchange with the official fee and sold it in the Bazaar so all the money we had spent was earned.
-First of this year, in Nouroz, it was about 1/3th of my salary (Turkey), again because of the different rates of foreign exchanges in official and Bazzar.
-2 months ago (Russia) it was about my whole monthly salary, because there weren't any official foreign exchange available
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- Now, I think it's going to pay more than 2 times of my salary if I want to go to Russia for example.
It means in last 5 years we were becoming poorer and poorer but the government had tried to conceal it by spending oil dollars. Now that wealthy current is stopped and we are all descending with no intention or even selection, we are obliged to endure these economical problems beside pollution and obsessions. We are treated like sinister who is passing his sentences in a bad climate (which is my own country in this case) and the moment we get out we will be free.

Honesty

This week I was introduced to a party by KhaleSanaz which is a gathering by some women who have decided to talk about their mind obsessions and trying to solve them by hearing others ideas. It was somehow a noble party, because those ones who are invited have the aim of getting most advantages of the time they are passing there and also they try being honest ,with themselves and with the others, too.
We talk about some of our fears and some of the things which are broadcasting negative energy for us and surprisingly I saw those fears didn't remain as a fear after talking about. Maybe it's a psychological technique of behaving yourself or a method that we found useful but whatever it is, I enjoyed my time for learning some new things.
P.S. If there is someone who is interested in such gathering and have enough time of being a participant, just let me know.

Chaos

While everyone are talking about foreign exchange rates in Iran and fast tolerances, I'm happy of having Mehrdad and Rozana beside for playing and talking afternoons. We decided not to follow the NEWS at home for a chill out, and surprisingly I think it's working. Maybe because most of the news of my country are bad ones so hearing about them won't give you a good feeling of getting knowledge.
Anyway, people of my country are baring economical problems which think are caused by the government. I'm one of them but I think we all make the situation of this lose, when members of a community only think about personal advantages and the total price of that item is not important, then you will see people who are bothering themselves for buying and selling foreign exchanges and getting some gain. Nobody think about future, nobody think about ill democracy which let this economy fall, nobody think about people who are in fatal need of money ... only think about ourselves, ..., what's happening to my country!!!

Used Gift

What will be your reaction of seeing someone's wearing a ring (or any other gift) which is unique and you'd given it to a common friend as her birthday gift? and when you ask it from the person who is wearing about the place she had bought that ring, she answers proudly that it's her birthday gift by that common friend (!!!!!!!!!)
I was really fed up when I found that, pretty fed up.

Rozana's 1st Stitches

This blog is my place of writing most of the first incidents of Rozana. I've written from my pregnancy and her birth up to now, Her first smile, standing up, walking, talking, traveling and lots of more things are kept here and now I'm writing about her 1st stitches.
We went to school in the morning and then I came to work, about 10 o'clock her teacher called me and said she had fallen in the yard and her head is broken but not seriously. I said don't do anything till the moment I'd be there, turned on the car and drove as fast as I can. When I got there she was slept on a bed and her injury was bleeding, I started crying (!!!!!!!! how brave I am) and they led me out. She was silent and just gazing with those black eyes. They brought her into the surgery room (!!!!!) and started sewing the stitches...
Anyway, most of us have same experiences from our childhood and hopefully it'll be good very soon, but I'm thinking about those parents whose children have serious problems...

Gmail Filtering

I was waiting for the new national internet of Iran from Saturday and today I saw my Gmail account is filtered , also google is going to be filtered in coming hours and I don't know what the hell am I suposed to do with my researches  about new articles and phenomenons without Google, maybe I should use Iran Telecome search engine ( !!!!!!!!!!! )
Anyway, I will find the way but I'm thinking about the degree of my tolerance, there is a story: If you put a frog in a cold water and then start heating gradually the frog will be boiled with no objection, but if you put it in a boiling water at once it will jump out definitely. I am the frog and just estimating if I've been led to the boiling water or not.

First School Day

Rozana went to pre-School course today. In the morning we went to a school near by our home and she started playing with the children. After some times I didn't bare the official environment of that school, all the staff wore black uniforms and all the walls were full of Holy Quran versus and war pictures (!!!). I asked Rozana for staying there alone, went to her kindergarten school which is managed very modern and update (but I should pay a lot for that), and asked for her registration, they accepted her and gave me the uniform. I came back to the school Rozana was there, asked her to come out. She was surprised but accepted, surprisingly nobody asked me why she is going out (!!!), she wore her uniform in the car and kissed me for choosing that school. I drove as fast as I can and ... we were on time for her first day of pre-school course. The number of students in that class is 10 and she will eat her breakfast and lunch there. Everything become as I wished. I participated in the ceremony and then after fetching her to my mom's house I went to work at about 12(!!!).
I don't know what will be her memory of this day in the future, she were supposed to go somewhere else and then I changed her school in 10 minutes but I'm sure she will have lots of fun times and learn new things with her friends.

Female Managers

Today I read an article written by someone who had seen a senior manager of Google has moved to Yahoo, up to here it's not very unusual but the interesting part for him was the sexuality of that manager who is female, very nice and only 37 years old, she is Marissa Mayer.
The article was about our bounded minds which are not predicting for a young beautiful woman as a manager, most of us believe that a woman can be nice or clever but not mutually!!! I don't know if it's true in most cases or not but from the point of an Iranian manager who is working in my own country being a female manager is very hard especially when you have some male employees. Not all but most of those male employees nag that you are not paying enough attention to their efforts and are always praising their women employees.
I don't know if my collegues are reading these lines or not but want to say something here: Women are sacrificing to keep their jobs with their husbands and children and education and ... so they are doing all their tasks in a planned scadule for saving some time only for their rest so that they are better employees. They run and listen and think and .. only for being a better element in their work but men are some creatures who think they are better( because of their physical power) and have the righ of rulling men. In recent years some thoughts have been changed but still you can see men who are not working as hard as women at work and expect the same.
 I can't bare these views and maybe they can't bare me but I still think women are exacter at work although they are not cleverer in some cases.

Russia, Summer 2012

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 We went to Moscow and St.Petersburg For summer holidays. These are some samples of almost 1700 pictures we took there. It was a brand new experience for me as the first European country I've ever met, maybe for those who have met other European countries all the sceines are the same but everything was brand new for me, churches, bridges, muesumes, circus, music festivals, metro stations, train, ships ... and lots of other places we met there.

If anybody wants go there with a child don't forget your trolley and summer and winter cloths together, because you should walk a very long way and weather is very changing.

Laptop + Earthquake + ...

Let me tell my mind from last frame this time!!!
KhaleSanaz is in the way of Europe now , she's left us for about 20 days and I'm happy of her happiness. She always says you must reach to your wishes at the right time not sooner or later, if you are in habit of traveling now, you should go right now not when you are getting old and are not able to walk or eat healthy, if you like having something now and are able of buying it, just do and don't wait for future days which you will be more wealthy or have more times of using it...
Having a laptop was a WISH for me during past years. When I was studying Electronic in the university (about 13 years ago) most of rich students had it but weren't able to use it perfectly and I was dreaming if I become rich I'll buy one ASAP. Time passes, I started working, I become wealthy enough and I become an addict of Internet and computer and .... now I have a modern Apple Macbook with the latest features of the market and I have't paid any money for it because it's a gift of my work but I don't find any enthusiasm of working with it now !!!!!!!! Why it's going this way? I think my wishes have changed, maybe having it is still someone elses dream.

Last night we were invited in my mom's house with some other guests include Mehrdad's and KhaleAttie's parents and I heard about an earthquake happened some hour earlier in Azirbaijan of Iran. Really I forced my eyes to stop crying, Earthquake is my main nightmare for years, lots of nights I've cried of the fear of losing my beloved in a blink of an eye and now it's happened again in a corner of my country. I'm upset and sorry for those who are involved in any way.
God bless all those who died yesterday.

Seaside Summer

Last weekend we went to seaside of Caspian sea with my parents. Rozana misses 1st Artin's BDay but she had lots of interesting moments. when we were coming back yesterday she was blaming us for the short period of the travel. She ordered the next one to be at least one week. Another nice tip was her surprise when she saw we are going by car, she imagined we are going to somewhere else like Cyprus or Turkey so she wasn't satisfied up to the moment she saw the see from our car :D The world of children is really nice, pure and honest with no policy or trick, I love this world.

P.S. Dear Artin ,Happy Happy Birthday, we wish a healthy wealthy life with your beloved.

Technology

Today morning Rozana decided to eat Shirberenj( a desert made of milk and rice) which I'd cooked the previous night so we all get late and were in hurry and ... I forgot bringing my mobile phone !!!

Up to here it's not wiered but I found the dept of my today difficulties when I found that I've lost connection to my calendar (which I write everyday tasks), to my digital wallet (which has usernames and password of all bank accounts and web logins), internet connection to certain sites which were bookmarked there, my calls and ... Thanks God that I have a back up of phonebook in Google profile, at least I can talk to my friends.

! year ago I wasn't bind to these new features of smartphones but now I see it's difficult living without them.

Gilavand

LastThursday and Friday we were invited in one of our friends villa near Tehran. They had pool between the garden and Rozana did her best in playing there. At night when we were getting back she kept on saying she had lots of sweet moments and it was the most pleasure I can get from her.

Good News

2 days ago I heard news of one of my friend's pregnancy. It was interesting and even more when I found she has twins.
Having a kid is one of the most complicated tasks of the world, from one hand it's natural having kids, from the other hand it has lots of sweet moments between but also lots more though moments while she is crying or sick or impolite or unsuccessful in her life ..
But I pray from deep of my heart that whoever wishes for become a mother/father , his/her wishes become true.

Internet

I'm really addicted to internet and nowadays thinking about the ways of decreasing this addiction...
I'm living with internet about13 years, those years with a PII PC and a 19.2K Dial-up connection, but persistent in getting information, checking Emails and chat with friends. Gradually my fields changed, I started blogging and getting membership of some social community web sites and continue education by internet recently. All these years I had trouble in breathing if I lost my connection, during trips and parties and even going to restaurants I was looking for a coffe-net( I'm doing the same these days by turning on my WiFi). 
Every morning when I'm at work, I'm reading news while eating breakfast and then thinking about the tasks I should complete in the day.
Now I feel I'm loosing my best moments of thinking and learning (morning) by turning around internet and making my eyes tired. When I become tired then I don't like studying or writing any essay so I've lost that day!!!
I've decided to make a little changes to not blame myself in future, do you agree?

My Little Princess

She is getting a young woman in my eyes. Love you Rozana but not in the way you love me, I love you because you are part of my heart, my body and soul, you are a model of my own spirite mixed with your own talents and ideas, mixed with Mehrdad's specifications and turned to this lovely, talking, naughty, beautiful, gorgeous, honest, frank, sometimes rude, happy doll that I have.

Isfahan

Two weeks ago I went to Isfahan with all IT managers of my work place. It was all laugh, the way airplane took off and land, the way we did our conference and also all the moments of visiting Imam Square and eating dinner in ShabNeshin restaurant and ... In the way of coming back we all decided to come with bus instead of airplane, we forgot that we are living in Iran so thought if we use a private bus only for IT managers we have more times for talking and laughing, but I should confess that it wasn't a good choice, we talked and laughed of course but got tired too. Buses in Iran are not in clean state of servicing, when I compare them with our neighbor country, Turkey, then I become sure that we are living in IRAN.

Pars Aqua Park

Last Thursday I went to Pars Aqua Park with Rozana and my mom and KhaleSanaz. It's a copy of international aqua parks but with some differences, first of all women and men are not allowed in simultaneously and second you can not enjoy direct sunbeam because a layer of glass is between !!!
But generally speaking it was interesting. We played for more than 6 hours and when we were getting out ,Rozana was in great hunger.Everything was a copy of other countries but in a different level. First of all security control was so serious, they check all the packages and physical check also. Then we were allowed to enter the joy-land of Pinocchio. Even Rozana commands me not to go to the regular pool we go everyday and come there from now!!!
Second you are not allowed to bring any food, if do so they will through it into garbage!!!) and also no gold (you should put them in a safe box), but you are Allowed to enjoy your time while you are in.
I recommend going there for those who lives in Tehran and think haven't had enough pleasure recently, but unfortunately you are missing your spouse, brothers or sons.

First Card

I got Rozana's first sport club membership card which has her photo with scarf today !!!! It's really nice, she's grown and turning to a sport woman while we are swimming or climbing mountain :D




I'm going to eat lunch with KhaleSanaz today. I'm not hungry but happy of stepping out of work for meeting a dear friend.

10th Anniversary

Tomorrow is our 10th wedding anniversary... even now I can remember those days, our first party were held in Mashad, my birth place, and only Mehrdad's brothers and sister and parents came there and then our 2nd one was held in Tehran one week later.
... Ten years ago at this time my grandma and all other families were preparing for some new guests who one of them was going to become my husband in future. They prepared everything, manage for the next day party, carpet my grandma's yard, cook delicious food and gathered there for the ceremony ...Mehrdad's family's flight had 3 hours delay, we went with 5 cars to the airport then came back and went again about 11 PM. When we reached grandma's home it was about 12, everyone were wondering about which one of those men is going to be Somi's husband (Now I know the most generous one is mine)... after meal every one were going to bed but I didn't really blink an eye, all the night I was awake and thinking about almost 3 years of knowing Mehrdad and all the incidents during those years and if my selection is correct or not. The next morning all my families were in EmamReza's shrine to see our religious wedding ceremony. I don't believe in EmamReza nowadays but I like going there again whenever I go to Mashad. Even now I can feel those electricity current between us when Mehrdad took my hand for the first time... After eating breakfast, I went to barbery with my uncle and didn't see Mehrdad till night when he came after me with Vahid & Shohre (my cousins).
...now 10 years have passed, I have Rozana(the gift of my life) and love Mehrdad but with a different look, Now I know him as a man who walked along with me all these years, I know Mehrdad's family better than those years and I'm still missing my brothers whenever we all get together.

Thanks God that gave me this 10 year opportunity for experiencing lots of sweet memories, maybe this 10 year was the best one in my whole life cycle from the point of abilities, maybe the rest is going to be with illnesses and passing away of family members, maybe I never feel the taste of motherhood in the future, maybe I'd not be able to talk to my dearest friend, KhaleSanaz, as easy as before, maybe my collegues who are in my close friend circuit wouldn't be with me again .... and lots of other probabilities. But I'm happy of having this 10 year opportunity and wrote this post for sharing it with you.

Thank you all my kind readers who were available more than 8 years of this 10 year way.

Away

I'm going to a working trip for 3 days and I'm away from Mehrdad, Rozana and my parents. Honestly speaking I've missed them before getting apart specially I'm missing Rozana's smell !!!!!!!!!
Thanks God that I'm going with a group of best friends, maybe their presence can make this departure durable.

Stop Laughing

Today I went to a funeral ceremony but one of my friends said something and I started laughing !!!!!!! It was really a very bad situation. I had a date in my hand, I swallowed it at once to stop laughing but I'm not sure if I was successful or not.

My Father

This is my father, the man who is always playing with Rozana, is worrying about my brothers and I education, is regretful of his past because of losing some important things for his believes (at least he'd been happy during those times), some one who left USA for Iran revolution, is famous of his honesty and friend loving, is adoring my mom by every word he is saying and is trying to be the best although I don't like some of his actions.

Happy Father's day to all kind fathers.

Party

I've invited some of my friends for next Thursday by SMS. Type of my invitation was nobel, I invited and cancelld and reinvited all by SMS.
Sometimes being involved in technology is really interesting.

Living Regular = Living Good

When everything is passing regularly we don't understand it's value,except the moments of problems. Mehrdad is in a working mission and I've missed him a lot. It's somehow strange, when we are together, most of the times he comes home late and we are not with each other very much but his absence is felt everywhere, in my home and heart of course.

Rozana is doing well as before. Yesterday I did something wrong and she blamed me like a mother... and I was just laughing of her face-figure and gestures. I try going to her kindergarten more than before (up to now,most of the times my parents fetch her to home) and after it we go to some parks or playing grounds of children. I don't really know while she'd been in the kindergarten from morning till afternoon and just playing there, now how she is finding  more energy for being in the park sometimes till 20PM !!!! She loves keeping her hair as long as possible but with no interest of using clips, just imagine her face with hair up to her nose.!!

...And if I want to write about myself, I should say I'm still running for saving some TIMES. Being divided between work and university and Mehrdad and rozana and parents need a 30-hour day not a 24-hour one.

...Yesterday I went to restaurant with my friends. The waiter brought something new for our table beside, we asked each other if anybody knows the name of the food but no answer. So we decided to ask the waiter ... Surprisingly he answered even he didn't know the name!!! Then our faces and the blush of laughing was interesting.

For All Kind Moms

Tomorrow is called mother's day in Iran. Before having Rozana, I always think about this day as a reminder for thanking my mom's kindnesses, after having her, I'm worshiping my mom for her generosity and sacrifices she'd done for raising my brothers and I.

It's somehow odd, even the moment I was becoming conscious after the surgery of giving birth to Rozana, I wasn't thinking about myself or even Rozana, but only thanking my mom. All those moments which I was paining and trying to believe my new role, she was in front of my eyes, calm and kind, strong and expert, happy and caring, available and smiling, ..., just for me.

Now I'm a  mother and feeling Rozana by all my cells. She will be a mother in future and will feel what I'm feeling now and I'm sure she will be a good mom because her trainer is my mom.

Happy mother's day to all kind moms, especially those who are living in Iran and try to teach humanity to their child among all these dirtiness's surrounding Iran's environment.

Happy Mother's Day.

Exams

These days I'm really busy with exams and up to now I've missed two trips to Shiraz and BandarAbbas !!!
Rozana is doing well and understands me when I'm trying to understand different types of encryption and project management and ...(my courses), She keeps quiet and try to make the least noise.
Thanks God everything is going well again. Thanks God.

P.S. Last week someone called Mehrdad and said his wife had found my backpack in a street with all documents and university jobs but without my pretty Tablet. We went and gave my bag. This experience thought me never leave my bag in the car and also never save personal photos and films in mobile devices.

Robbery

On Wednesday when Rozana and I went to a shopping center for buying an ice-cream, a thief came  and opened the door of the car and stoles my backpack. I had my car documents include Mehrdad's driving license and also insurance ones and my Galaxy Tablet. lots of more things were stolen but the most precious ones were these. I was shocked and Rozana was crying in a loud voice. When I asked her why are YOU crying she answered she'd like that backpack very much !!!
Anyway, we went to police officer and report the robbery. They said maybe it's returnable if they become successful in finding the man.
I was still shocked, but something nice was happening... Rozana stopped her naughtiness completely and were calming me . She was only kissing my cheeks and saying" Mama don't be upset, you will buy a pink Tablet and a better bag ...". Even at night when Mehrdad came home, Rozana were asking him to come to me in the other room and staying beside me for giving me a better feeling.
It was the first time I found that I can count on her as a friend who is backing me up whenever I need. I was really proud of having her but I'm still unhappy of losing my bag.
Life is passing and only memories will remain, how good if we leave good memories.

Some times you need a friend for asking her about your appearance of that day, sometimes you need her/him for talking back of another friend, sometimes you need her/him for help in some tough jobs ... but some times you need her for laying in her arms and cry ...

This is the precious of my friends, I have them always beside. Thank you

Father

Yesterday when I was walking with Mehrdad and Rozana and my father beside Darabad's river and enjoying nice weather of spring, I was thinking about the pleasure I have for having my parents beside to walk along.
Today morning one of my colleagues heard about her father pass away ... Counter of people without father plused one, one more family lost her baseline,... I'm upset.

Feel Like Crying

Sometimes you feel like crying although everything is OK and you are living well. I don't know if you understand what I want to say , but I want to express it here that sometimes I feel it and if I accept it I'll feel better but If I reject, it will remains somewhere in my mind hidden but always available. Maybe it's a part of my soul or a part I've unintentionally attached to it...

Though Night

Last night Rozana slept in my mom's house and it was the first night without her at home. 3 years ago when I was in a working mission I wasn't with her for two nights and it caused stop in her breast-feeding at the age of 21 months old, but this time she went somewhere intentionally with the knowledge of leaving us alone !!!!

I should confess that Mehrdad and I didn't slept well and I was only night-dreaming. I've missed her at the moment.

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